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By (user no longer on site) OP   
over a year ago

This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

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By *ed VoluptaWoman
over a year ago

Wirral.


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

Oh Charli, I feel for you so much!

This is heartbreaking to read. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it's all going to be ok. But I can't.

All I can do is thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing what you do. I couldn't do it but - like most people- I'm happy that you do.

You ARE appreciated

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By *ercuryMan
over a year ago

Grantham

Please never lose sight of how much we appreciate you all in the NHS and other caring services.

Ignore the keyboard covid warriors, the cheap political point scorers, the selfish twats that still seek meets...... You and your fellow workers are the ones that really count.

Stand tall, stand proud, stand ready.

We love you all.

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By *oubleswing2019Man
over a year ago

Colchester

Oh Charli, thank you for getting that off your chest. I don't think many folks can really appreciate the immense physical and emotional burden our care staff in their industries are experiencing 24/7.

And before anyone picks me up on my 24/7 comment, it's got to be remembered that these human beings don't just clear their desk, take their cup to the office sink, and turn the light out when they go close the office door to go home.

All of that which Charli wrote comes home with them. That's shit. I couldn't cope with that.

In essence, our frontline medics are in a clinical war, by any other name. They are fighting to save patients, yours or my loved ones, perhaps even me or you at some point.

But it's clear that they are also fighting to save themselves, making this tragedy even more awful than it really is. Clinical staff do not expect to lose their lives in their job role.

Firemen? Sure. Police ? Sure. Soldiers ? Most definitely. All these roles are trained for it.

I very much doubt the same level of training is given to clinical staff, and if something similar has been rolled out since, it's most likely been hastily cobbled together.

The difference being, those choosing to enter the fire/police/soldier professions choose to do so knowing the risks.

Anyone else on the front line has realised that their contract terms and conditions now has an unwritten clause added mentioning their risk of death.

Charli and others like them are at war. I don't feel that is an over-reaction. Charli has very clearly laid it out, warts and all.

Charli is venting and raging at the end of their post. This is because they care. Charli does not want to see you or I in their ward, and watch our lives pass away. Not when our own safety and response to the virus is in our own hands.

Note that nowhere does Charli blame anyone. Charli is simply saying to some members of society, "This is the real deal. Covid-19 doesn't care about your "loss of liberty" or other denials and impugnments. Please realise how lucky you are"

Charli and roughly 1.5 million others who work in the NHS across the UK (And this excludes the numbers who work in parallel adult/child social care) are fighting a war. And the frontline picture has been laid out. Ignore it at your peril.

Stay safe. Take measures. Protect yourselves and your loved ones.

Thank you Charli. Please take care. We hold you in our thoughts.

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By *pursChick aka ShortieWoman
over a year ago

On a mooch

Heartbreaking, I don’t know how you find the strength to deal with it every day xx

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By *ools and the brainCouple
over a year ago

couple, us we him her.

Another brutally honest and heartbreaking post Charli, keep up the work every right minded person greatly appreciates everything you and all of your colleagues are doing as for the non believers hopefully they will never get to need your services and carry on in their blissful ignorance.

Thank you and thanks to everyone in the NHS

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By *allySlinkyWoman
over a year ago

Leeds

Thanks for sharing Charli. A very thought provoking post. Your hard work is really appreciated.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Sending you love and virtual hugs x

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By *ouple in LancashireCouple
over a year ago

in Lancashire

Charli, thank you for giving us an insight into what is going on in your hospital and will sadly the same in many areas..

Stay strong ..

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By *ob198XaMan
over a year ago

teleford

Thank you Charlie. You are doing an incredibly tough role and your continued testimonies will hopefully shut down some of the children who live with no regard for others. Find time to take care of your own mental health too.

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By *mmabluTV/TS
over a year ago

upton wirral


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"
Wonderfull post even though it brings tears to my eyes.

I can only hope that a few of the idiots read this and take it onboard.

Things will get better happy new year

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Heart breaking post Charlie.

Sending you virtual hugs to you and all you colleagues. I wish we could do more, all we can do is follow the rules and try not to compound the problem.

KJ

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By *ustBoWoman
over a year ago

Somewhere in Co. Down

Thank you for this post and you're hard work. This is what people who are so lackadaisical abour covid should be reading. This is what the reality of covid is and it's horrific. Sadly those who have that attitude even these posts won't change their attitudes.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Charli what a brave, heart wrenching yet necessary post. Hard to imagine what this is doing to you and your colleagues...this nightmare will ease but the emotional impact will last a very long time...I hope you’re taking as much care of yourself self as you can right now. Fab should put this post on the home page for all to read. Heartfelt thanks to you and your colleagues and all frontline workers

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By *ilkChocManMan
over a year ago

Sanderstead

Can you do everyone a favour please and copy paste what you wrote there onto whatever media site you can find.

It's a harrowing read and goes to really highlight the front line experiences, rather than the opinion of keyboard warriors, and those still believing it's all a great big hoax and nothing serious at all.

That was an incredible read - thank you for taking the time to post that, and for what your doing everyday.

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By *innMan
over a year ago

edinburgh

My heartfelt thanks and appreciation to you and your colleagues.

Decent sensible people understand the pressure and the sacrifices made. Those same people also know that the NHS was ill equipped and underfunded by a Tory regime that rendered a once great institution into a shadow of its former glory.

My daughter is an A&E doctor and I know first hand what the pressure has been like.

When the time comes I hope every voter remembers the suffering and heartbreak and holds the corrupt and selfish ones accountable.

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By *all me FlikWoman
over a year ago

Galaxy Far Far Away

A harrowing but extremely important read. The next thing I see is a message from someone wanting to meet today. I have sent him the link to this forum thread for him to read....think this will be my standard response now.

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By *uckandbunnyCouple
over a year ago

In your bed

A great post but sadly will not impact those who are dogmatic about it all being a hoax or a conspiracy.

They will continue to state they know best and have no science or facts to back them up. Just some wacky you tube links.

Its best to try not to get drawn in as there will always be extremists in every walk of life and they will just view your post as yet more propaganda rather than a genuine view from the frontline.

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By (user no longer on site) OP   
over a year ago

Thanks for the kind words people, i wasn’t expecting or looking for them but I do appreciate the sincerity and kindness.

It’s become obvious this week that we are in a new and dangerous place with this pandemic, I’d just like people to understand what that means. It’s not about our welfare as staff or the difficulty of our job, it’s the fear we are so close to a point where we have to choose who we can try to save because our capacity has gone.

Someone made a comment regarding soldiers before, it’s an interesting thought, I happen to have been one of them too and served with NATO in Kosovo.

Experiencing death is actually something I feel NHS staff are massively better equipped for, we are an incredibly tight team, we have mental Health input and support and a careful eye for each of our colleagues.

I feel the major difference is when you are on active service in the army you will see periods of respite, you’ll come away from the frontline after a few weeks and effectively recharge to go again. We haven’t stopped since the first patient entered our trust back in March, Manchester itself has then been at the highest levels of infection since October. We have obviously undertaken the entirety of that task wearing hard PPE, it makes any task massively more difficult.

Kosovo was a fairly risk free war, although I didn’t have a single shot fired at me during my time there I did witness the results of tunic cleansing, I saw perhaps the very worst levels of hatred humans can offer. My trust has now clocked 798 confirmed covid deaths, I won’t open a discussion about reporting but the reality is we have probably handled significantly more than that, time and history will probably confirm that. It’s a very different experience to deal with people from your home town, people who remind you of friends, family, loved ones, they speak your language, live in streets you know etc, on occasions we’ve been fighting to save people a member of our team knows, members of other clinical teams and then sadly also one of our own team. As terrible as it sounds when you are dealing with death of people from another land or culture it lacks that connection. The words “close to home” really resonate with my feelings on the subject, that has been very difficult to deal with.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Heartfelt words OP from someone who really is on the front line. I'd hope people stumbling across this post who are out there meeting might take heed. We can only hope. Unfortunately, I just think society is too selfish and too many people are self-centred and too blasé about their safety and that of others.

Stay safe.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


"A harrowing but extremely important read. The next thing I see is a message from someone wanting to meet today. I have sent him the link to this forum thread for him to read....think this will be my standard response now."

I'm going to do the same in my status, I'm sick of seeing selfish people in my area requesting meets or using ambiguous 'so horny' style statements to fish for meets.

Now is not the time people!

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By *assion and MoreCouple
over a year ago

Here and There, Monaghan


"Heartfelt words OP from someone who really is on the front line. I'd hope people stumbling across this post who are out there meeting might take heed. We can only hope. Unfortunately, I just think society is too selfish and too many people are self-centred and too blasé about their safety and that of others.

Stay safe. "

Thank you for your humanity and together we will win the good fight.

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By *hocCock1Man
over a year ago

Southampton


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

I am truly humbled by your post, sending you big hugs x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

This was heartbreaking to read.

Can’t really say anything other than thankyou to everyone who is working so hard to try and reach some kind of end to this thing x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


"A harrowing but extremely important read. The next thing I see is a message from someone wanting to meet today. I have sent him the link to this forum thread for him to read....think this will be my standard response now.

I'm going to do the same in my status, I'm sick of seeing selfish people in my area requesting meets or using ambiguous 'so horny' style statements to fish for meets.

Now is not the time people!"

Sickmaking isnt it?

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By *agneto.Man
over a year ago

Bham

Thanks for all that you are doing. Hats off. The mental strength and resilience you show to do that job is remarkable.

Also great to hear first hand primary accounts of what it's really like. I just wish the idiots would take the situation onboard and behave accordingly and not continue to live in denial, fantasy land or focusing on non-issues.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

OP that was a heartbreaking read and I really feel for you. You do possibly one of the hardest jobs in these dark times, I hope you can keep your chin up. This will end, keep on being you and sending virtual hugs your way x

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By * Plus ECouple
over a year ago

The South


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

I have very few words that seem appropriate.

No words adequate enough to thank you, to support you and your colleagues or to even begin to grasp what you and your colleagues face on a day to day basis; this post and others give us an insight, a snapshot, the merest glimpse behind the curtain, for which I'm grateful for.

There's are no words that adequately say thank you and the thousands of others like you.

I read that and cried. Lots.

Powerful, emotional, without apportioning blame or responsibility.

Simply put, simply told. Exactly how it is.

Thank you, from the very bottom of my heart.

E

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

This is one of those posts where I find myself typing and deleting trying to find the right words.

Then you realise that there are no words that can truly convey what you want to say.

My heart goes out to you and your colleagues at this time. You are now placed in a position where you have to make decisions nobody should be asked to make.

Sending you strength at this time and going forward.

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By *ophieslutTV/TS
over a year ago

Central

Thank you Charli, for doing the great work that you do - most of us couldn't. It's dismal the amount of downplaying of the threats and devastation that people try here.

Most sensible, decent people have huge respect for you and the work that's going on, invisible to us.

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By *az080378Woman
over a year ago

Cromer


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

Such an important, eye opening post, thank you.

Just trying to keep this at the top, I like others have highlighted to all those looking to meet today on my updates.

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By *arry monk40Man
over a year ago

Telford


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

And I'm on a train only one wearing a mask

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By *andyCane4uTV/TS
over a year ago

Sligo


"Can you do everyone a favour please and copy paste what you wrote there onto whatever media site you can find.

It's a harrowing read and goes to really highlight the front line experiences, rather than the opinion of keyboard warriors, and those still believing it's all a great big hoax and nothing serious at all.

That was an incredible read - thank you for taking the time to post that, and for what your doing everyday."

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over a year ago

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Cant find the words to express what ive just read.

I've cried because its heartbreaking.

Thank you for sharing and giving an insight on what it actually happening in every hospital around the UK and the world.

Xx

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By *ady LickWoman
over a year ago

Northampton Somewhere

God if only everyone could read this OP it might make people behave differently.

You and your colleagues are amazing

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


" Such an important, eye opening post, thank you.

Just trying to keep this at the top, I like others have highlighted to all those looking to meet today on my updates.

"

Ditto.

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By *andare63Man
over a year ago

oldham

Thank you for the insight and sharing the heart breaking situations and choices you are dealing with on a daily basis. I've lost two friends one in his 40s a triathlete and a mate in his early 50s also fit as hell,,, yet my 90 Yr old uncle caught it, rode it out and was back to normality within 3 days. This is what I find so dangerous about this virus. Wake up peeps

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By *andare63Man
over a year ago

oldham


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

And I'm on a train only one wearing a mask"

Again,, that makes my blood boil. People are such fuckwits

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


"Heartfelt words OP from someone who really is on the front line. I'd hope people stumbling across this post who are out there meeting might take heed. We can only hope. Unfortunately, I just think society is too selfish and too many people are self-centred and too blasé about their safety and that of others.

Stay safe. "

Unfortunately the ones who really think this is all crap will just scroll on past or even comment with nasty words. How has sex with randoms become more important than protecting life ??? I get so angry with these people and yet they still continue. Saying the hospitals are empty and that it’s only older people who suffer. They think they are invincible ...

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By *lym4realCouple
over a year ago

plymouth

Well from both of us our deepest thanks for doing what you are doing and for members of your team as well and it's just mind boggling to us the attitude of some on here likes it's some lark that's been made up for whatever reason and we both know NHS staff here and what you put echoes quite a bit of what they saying they are most times being pushed over the edge but somehow find it in themselves to carry on ! and after all this over or rather the worse of it we hope that our nation some how rediscovers the long forgotten notion of "For The common good " and truly appreciate what the likes of you and your team and our friends have gone through and what a truly amazing thing the "NHS" is

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

Most of us appreciate what you do and what you're going through to some degree. Many of us have close family or friends working in that environment.

Sadly there are those who won't accept, won't change behaviour or worse deliberately stir up things with lies on here.

I wish there was a way of adding a red flag to such posters profiles. That way we'd know before looking.

I must admit OP I'm getting to a point where I'm thinking of deleting my profile and walking from this after many many years. The number of stupid fuckwitts on here dispares me at times with deliberate insensitivity and blatant mis'truths' they brandish about.

Thankfully there's life outside of fab even in 2020 that's been very evident.

Chin up and know there's many who support you and the thousands of others on the front line saving lives. This is the legacy you leave behind, lives saved who can continue to enjoy being loved, giving love and enjoy life.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Just replying to keep this current. It’s important x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Keep going... tough out there..

Love another

NHS nurse xxx

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By *amesoflondonMan
over a year ago

London


"Thanks for the kind words people, i wasn’t expecting or looking for them but I do appreciate the sincerity and kindness.

It’s become obvious this week that we are in a new and dangerous place with this pandemic, I’d just like people to understand what that means. It’s not about our welfare as staff or the difficulty of our job, it’s the fear we are so close to a point where we have to choose who we can try to save because our capacity has gone.

Someone made a comment regarding soldiers before, it’s an interesting thought, I happen to have been one of them too and served with NATO in Kosovo.

Experiencing death is actually something I feel NHS staff are massively better equipped for, we are an incredibly tight team, we have mental Health input and support and a careful eye for each of our colleagues.

I feel the major difference is when you are on active service in the army you will see periods of respite, you’ll come away from the frontline after a few weeks and effectively recharge to go again. We haven’t stopped since the first patient entered our trust back in March, Manchester itself has then been at the highest levels of infection since October. We have obviously undertaken the entirety of that task wearing hard PPE, it makes any task massively more difficult.

Kosovo was a fairly risk free war, although I didn’t have a single shot fired at me during my time there I did witness the results of tunic cleansing, I saw perhaps the very worst levels of hatred humans can offer. My trust has now clocked 798 confirmed covid deaths, I won’t open a discussion about reporting but the reality is we have probably handled significantly more than that, time and history will probably confirm that. It’s a very different experience to deal with people from your home town, people who remind you of friends, family, loved ones, they speak your language, live in streets you know etc, on occasions we’ve been fighting to save people a member of our team knows, members of other clinical teams and then sadly also one of our own team. As terrible as it sounds when you are dealing with death of people from another land or culture it lacks that connection. The words “close to home” really resonate with my feelings on the subject, that has been very difficult to deal with.

"

Dear Charlie,

Firstly, may I thank you and all of your teams up and down the land for keeping going - in spite of the covidiots. Exhausted, underpaid, doing above and beyond daily (per usual), to look after us all.

Secondly, and most importantly, I am going to DM you my mobile number. Pease don't advertise it. If ever you or the team you mention need to vent at someone not in the NHS, just to say what you feel, be heard, get t off your chest and be able to sleep. (I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist, just a human with good ears). Seriously, call, nothing goes any further. As you look after us, I want to offer to look after you all too. Confidential, discreet and in utmost respect of you all in the uniform. I urge more here to offer the same. Look after our hero's - clapping counts for nothing, do something real. Very best, Jx (London)

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

The link to this thread is going on my status and profile too.

Charli: xx

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By *ed VoluptaWoman
over a year ago

Wirral.


"Keep going... tough out there..

Love another

NHS nurse xxx"

Thank you, too. For everything

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By (user no longer on site) OP   
over a year ago


"Thanks for the kind words people, i wasn’t expecting or looking for them but I do appreciate the sincerity and kindness.

It’s become obvious this week that we are in a new and dangerous place with this pandemic, I’d just like people to understand what that means. It’s not about our welfare as staff or the difficulty of our job, it’s the fear we are so close to a point where we have to choose who we can try to save because our capacity has gone.

Someone made a comment regarding soldiers before, it’s an interesting thought, I happen to have been one of them too and served with NATO in Kosovo.

Experiencing death is actually something I feel NHS staff are massively better equipped for, we are an incredibly tight team, we have mental Health input and support and a careful eye for each of our colleagues.

I feel the major difference is when you are on active service in the army you will see periods of respite, you’ll come away from the frontline after a few weeks and effectively recharge to go again. We haven’t stopped since the first patient entered our trust back in March, Manchester itself has then been at the highest levels of infection since October. We have obviously undertaken the entirety of that task wearing hard PPE, it makes any task massively more difficult.

Kosovo was a fairly risk free war, although I didn’t have a single shot fired at me during my time there I did witness the results of tunic cleansing, I saw perhaps the very worst levels of hatred humans can offer. My trust has now clocked 798 confirmed covid deaths, I won’t open a discussion about reporting but the reality is we have probably handled significantly more than that, time and history will probably confirm that. It’s a very different experience to deal with people from your home town, people who remind you of friends, family, loved ones, they speak your language, live in streets you know etc, on occasions we’ve been fighting to save people a member of our team knows, members of other clinical teams and then sadly also one of our own team. As terrible as it sounds when you are dealing with death of people from another land or culture it lacks that connection. The words “close to home” really resonate with my feelings on the subject, that has been very difficult to deal with.

Dear Charlie,

Firstly, may I thank you and all of your teams up and down the land for keeping going - in spite of the covidiots. Exhausted, underpaid, doing above and beyond daily (per usual), to look after us all.

Secondly, and most importantly, I am going to DM you my mobile number. Pease don't advertise it. If ever you or the team you mention need to vent at someone not in the NHS, just to say what you feel, be heard, get t off your chest and be able to sleep. (I am not a psychiatrist, psychologist, just a human with good ears). Seriously, call, nothing goes any further. As you look after us, I want to offer to look after you all too. Confidential, discreet and in utmost respect of you all in the uniform. I urge more here to offer the same. Look after our hero's - clapping counts for nothing, do something real. Very best, Jx (London)"

Thank you Jay,

In truth, we have dedicated team time and a great set of psyches behind us, some staff, some volunteers... if you wish to help perhaps contact the london trusts as I’m sure like ours the offer of external help would be gratefully received.

Thank you for reaching out, that’s a very kind gesture x

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By * Plus ECouple
over a year ago

The South


"The link to this thread is going on my status and profile too.

Charli: xx"

Great idea. Me too.

E

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By *ercuryMan
over a year ago

Grantham


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

Forum Post of 2020.

Nothing else comes even close!

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By *irty filthy milfWoman
over a year ago

somewhere only i know!

Charli darling reading this it has hit home even more just how much we all need to do as we’ve been told.

Working in retail you see all sorts and I completely feel you’re pain as I know 1st hand, 2nd hand and 3rd hand how some just don’t believe it, want to believe it or even look after themselves or others, I’ve lost count of how many times a day we have to tell customers the rules to protect us and other customers, the abuse we’ve had, the threats and even been spat at in more than 1 occasion!

Knowing you as I do I know you’re strong and will get through this and when we do we’ll have a magnum off fizz and a few hours setting the world to rights.

Big hugs stay strong and remember we’re all here for you xx DFM aka second best bob in the world

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By (user no longer on site) OP   
over a year ago


"Charli darling reading this it has hit home even more just how much we all need to do as we’ve been told.

Working in retail you see all sorts and I completely feel you’re pain as I know 1st hand, 2nd hand and 3rd hand how some just don’t believe it, want to believe it or even look after themselves or others, I’ve lost count of how many times a day we have to tell customers the rules to protect us and other customers, the abuse we’ve had, the threats and even been spat at in more than 1 occasion!

Knowing you as I do I know you’re strong and will get through this and when we do we’ll have a magnum off fizz and a few hours setting the world to rights.

Big hugs stay strong and remember we’re all here for you xx DFM aka second best bob in the world "

I look fwd to that Bob off! x

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By *irty filthy milfWoman
over a year ago

somewhere only i know!


"Charli darling reading this it has hit home even more just how much we all need to do as we’ve been told.

Working in retail you see all sorts and I completely feel you’re pain as I know 1st hand, 2nd hand and 3rd hand how some just don’t believe it, want to believe it or even look after themselves or others, I’ve lost count of how many times a day we have to tell customers the rules to protect us and other customers, the abuse we’ve had, the threats and even been spat at in more than 1 occasion!

Knowing you as I do I know you’re strong and will get through this and when we do we’ll have a magnum off fizz and a few hours setting the world to rights.

Big hugs stay strong and remember we’re all here for you xx DFM aka second best bob in the world

I look fwd to that Bob off! x"

Me too Pool table part 2 with tarpaulin lol xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

what a post! take care out there Charli

so many people think its all a conspiracy.. fake even.. a lie to develop a new world order.. the right wing think the left are behind it and the other way round..

i think people expected this to be like the plague.. its too invisible for people to comprehend. Surely the media are at fault for not getting more stories like yours out there

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago


"This week I think I’ve faced the hardest day of my life so far, statistically my Trust also had its blackest day to date in this pandemic.

As one of the few non clinicals within our red zone I’m charged with safeguarding family members when they are allowed a short space of time with their loved ones who will sadly not recover from covid-19. It’s a process I’ve done over 100 times since June, prior to that the ban of family visits meant I simply sat with the patient so we could tell their families someone was with them when they passed away.

We saw 10 of our patients pass away over a 7 hour period in our expanded space, that’s 2 more than the previously worst day the trust has recorded and in reality as we where losing 3 in 5 back then compared to 1 in 5 now it tells us we are now dealing with a challenge which has doubled in size since are worst peak at the start of the pandemic.

I’ve never before had to leave bodies in place to enable me to move to the next one before we lost them. I’ve never witnessed our nurses having to deal patients vitals failing at the same time and leaving them on a knife edge unable to treat any other patients issues should they arise.

It was made worst by the fact one of our senior nurses was buried the same day, she had gone off work with the virus only to return and die in our care last week. The demand on our time meant only 2 members of our team could attend her funeral, in some ways a lot of us feel we missed our chance to

I’m not sure people fully comprehend the meaning of being overwhelmed. We have already deployed our contingency plans in Manchester, we cancelled electric surgery and some minor services, we seconded staff with transferable skills to our team but this is it, this is our teams limit and with the rapid rise in cases in Manchester over the last few days we are starting to get the sense of a last stand. If we tip the balance the reality is we will have to make the choice of who we treat with our limited resource, we will have to accept that all we can do for some is make them comfortable and hope they can pass away peacefully.

I read so many posts in this forum from people wishing to downplay this virus, I wish they could experience what My team does on a day to day basis. I read many self centred posts using words like “loss of liberty” in a statement which inevitably is purely self focused. in truth I don’t think you realise just how fortunate you are.

"

You are all amazing xx

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By *cloversCouple
over a year ago

Hull

This is the most heart wrenching post & more so because everyword is true & is being experienced the length & breadth of our country.

We hold you in our arms, minds & hearts Charli - know that every one of your NHS colleagues, wherever we are, whatever our roles- stand next to you & will continue to fight this with you.

If you ever need a chat, a cry, an angry rage, a silence - we are here for you- please contact us - we will hold you up x

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By *eglieanCouple
over a year ago

Torbay

I really hope admin read this, and would now take down the continuous status bar ads for meets. This situation is now so serious that the site is loosening credibility. Stop them now ban the people who continually break the site rules. If it doesn't happen it's only time be fore the site will get highlighted and closed down. None of us want that. It keeps us sane and in hope we can keep in contact, share stuff and get back to normal asap, with the site still functioning.

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By *axxonBlackMan
over a year ago

north

Trust me when I say I clearly understand what your saying, so sorry about your experience, hope you have friends and family around you to reach out? so many idiots here in the north still think it’s not REAL. I work with the hospital but had to work in one of the care homes here, I’m a nurse assistant I see this first hand, when the second spike got here it hits us so bad we lost about 15 patients/residents in almost a week.

Staff been positive, everyone struggling and we still had to work through this period, the major problem about it here is the papers doesn’t help the staff and nurses. People always look for someone to blame rather than adhering to simple rules, had to work during Xmas and Hogmanay but some folks here still gathered around partying. It’s terrifying and scaring with the way it spreads so fast.

I still think when you don’t have anyone close to you that haven’t had it and don’t read the statistics online/news you don’t believe it. All through March till date you see lots of my neighbours furloughed they have no clue how lucky they have been. the rate people look for meets in fab just shows the level of unserious folks here. Hopefully the vaccine brings some kinda HOPE to us all I have had mine

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Massive hugs my lovely. Thank you for ALL you and everyone in the whole of the NHS do and are doing for us all.

Thank you isn't enough. I stay home to protect you. That and THANK YOU are all I have to offer.

THANK YOU with a million socially distanced, masked up hugs xxxx

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