FabSwingers.com forum: Feeling like the outsider

By (user no longer on site) OP
36 weeks ago

sometimes i just feel so alone. like i don’t really fit in anywhere, like everyone else has their place and i’m just kinda... here.

i do want to connect with people, i want to belong somewhere, but my head gets in the way. i overthink everything. i tell myself people don’t actually want me around or i’ll just be annoying if i try. so i stay quiet... even though deep down i don’t want to.

what makes it worse is seeing other people do it so easily. like making friends, chatting, just fitting in without even thinking about it. it looks so simple for them, but for me it feels like climbing a mountain.

it’s hard isn’t it. wanting to reach out but feeling completely stuck.

does anyone else feel like this? like you’re stood on the outside looking in, wanting to be part of it but not sure how to even start?

i don’t really have answers. i just know it gets heavy sometimes. maybe writing it here someone might get it.

if you’ve felt this too, how do you cope? how do you deal with the loneliness and actually find your people?

Sorry for the blog post, im just in my feelings right now its hard ... might delete this but maybe it will help.