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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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I appreciate this isn't for everybody..its a role play scenario that I'd developed as an expression of the d/s dynamic which tapped deep into my psyche. I wrote a little about previous encounters on another site and wanted to share that here...I'm looking for somebody who can engage with the role in a very particular way...
The role is basically the most submissive role I could devise and is inspired by childhood memories of a child-sized plastic doll we had in the house, who's clothes were completely removable. As a small boy, I spent far too long playing with that doll in some dark corner, allowing her to re-wire my brain in the most formative of ways.
It didn't take too long for me as an adult exploring d/s dynamics (after years of repressing the urges) to stumble on the memory of the doll, which set my creative thoughts racing. As somebody who had learned to explore kink through role play, the natural step for me was to come up with the human doll scenario.
Next I'd like to share two comments that have been sent to me, written by Folk who were caught by the idea for the role. I want to use them here, anonymously, because I haven't asked for permission to share their comments (if you're reading this and prefer me to remove, I will), because they expressed such an understanding of the potential of the role, that it inspires and informs me:
"I've done a similar scene before with a partner - I enjoy the passivity, the complete evacuation of personhood for an objectified femininity. Being both treated roughly, but also being cared for in the clinical manner that someone might for a treasured object. It's very hot for me to be dressed up, posed and used like that. Despite the lack of movement or reaction things can get very intense on the inside - it's almost meditative."
"I’ve known for a long time that the most effective punishment a Dom can give is to ignore me. To be near a Dom and to be horny but to be left alone is far more powerful than pain. Pain can be erotic and means I’m getting attention. The fantasy recognised that"
So I worked with another sub a few years back to actually bring this role play to life. I can't seem to find her profile on here at the moment, so suspect she's moved on (do come and say 'Hi' if that's not the case. She was a wonderful individual and an accomplished, creative and explorative sub. I hugely appreciated the energy she gave to the two meetings we had to explore the role. We discussed all elements of the role and looked at references. I'd explained my formative years experiences and we exchanged notes on references from Blade Runner and the like.
After an initial coffee meeting, we set about planning the detail of the first meeting which took place in a hotel south of London. I prepped the room, then went and waited in my car, leaving a room key hidden for her outside. I watched as she pulled up in her car. We had planned not to talk or meet before the moment that I walked into the room. She was to message me when she had changed and was ready.
It's always a huge thrill for me to get the 'come and get me' message...I remember my heart racing walking down the corridor of the hotel and pushing open the latched door. I had it in mind to fully engage with the role as far as I could. As somebody who has used more hotel rooms than I care to think about for work...the important thing for me was always to try and make the space my own. So I entered, completely ignoring the human sized object standing, facing against the wall. I probably went to the loo. I know I brushed my teeth...and most importantly I took the time to put on some music - I'd brought a portable speaker with me. I'd thought long and hard about the music choice. I wanted very much to create the right atmosphere. I chose the sound track to 'You were never really here' by Johnny Greenwood...it's uptempo but dark and unsettling...broken. It was perfect.
Then once I'd settled, I knew it was time to notice the doll standing off to one side. We had discussed outfits...I needed something a little revealing, easy to remove, but that would seem like a proper outfit as she stood there silently waiting. I feigned curiosity as I moved over to where the doll stood. I looked around her and started to lift her arms, which stayed where I moved them to. Then I became curious about the rest of her body, pulling her blouse apart to look at her pretty bra and sliding my hand inside it to see if she had nipples. Before long she was bent over on the spot, with her skirt pulled up to her waist and I was face to face with her very cute bottom, covered in the full set of navy blue knickers that one of her other doms had selected for her to wear. In a flash they were around her ankles. I don't remember the exact run of things from there, but I know that she had such a cute pussy and arsehole that I couldn't help myself from diving in with my tongue. I know also I would have really taken my time playing with her nipples (which were pierced) and breasts. At some point I physically picked her up and lay her on the bed, probably to remove the remainder of her clothes. I remember pulling her to the edge of the bed, letting her head dangle down, on her back, so I could push my cock in her mouth.
We had decided for there to be some natural movement for the important parts..but generally, she was to remain lifeless, with a constant middle-distant stare.
I fucked her on the bed...I don't remember how exactly..but it was wonderful.
The only time my doll broke role was when I pulled on her nipple too hard...she awoke with a 'fuuuuuuck'...I think I laughed, apologised and we went straight back into the roles.
Then I got up and showered, leaving her naked on the bed. I switched off my music, packed my little bag and left.
We had arranged for me to wait in the car park and to talk afterwards for a debrief. We both talked about it being an amazing session..I was reeling from the experience. Then we parted.
As I drove home I had this extraordinary sensation, like something had fundamentally changed about me...something deep inside my DNA. It was extraordinary.
We arranged to meet at second time. This time at her house. The doll was having an upgrade fitted. I could give her voice commands for her to fulfil...
As I said I know it won't suite everybody on this site...but if the idea speaks to you, I'd love to hear from you. |
