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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

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By *oodnitegirlWoman
over a year ago

Yorkshire

Glad you’ve reached your goal Rach! You’re a lovely, lovely woman and deserve every happiness x

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By *illy_the_tvTV/TS
over a year ago

hoorn, Netherlands

Sorry for the bad parts but congratulations on the good and getting to be who you truly are. I'm sure I can say this with everyone behind me, we all wish you the best of luck

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By *rightonsteveMan
over a year ago

Brighton - even Hove!

I’ve watched you change over the years and I’m impressed

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Hi Rachael. I’ve followed your journey over time and you kindly shared the article you wrote about your early journey. Thank you for sharing your progress. I’d wondered how things were with your marriage now you were getting the op.

I imagine your candid posts are really helpful to others thinking about transitioning. Do you write elsewhere as well?

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I’ve watched you change over the years and I’m impressed

Thanks Steve. I stumbled across a pic from a few years ago and was shocked myself xx

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By *rightonsteveMan
over a year ago

Brighton - even Hove!

I’m glad you’re still friends with your wife as it would have been quite a lot for her to process too.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Are you happy in yourself?

Have you had any regrets?

I think you’ve done amazing so far

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By *andy6677Man
over a year ago

crewe

Well done on your journey so far you have every right to be proud and by end of this year be more you too xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

And in case it needed to be said, I wish you all the best with the op and am pleased that you are still friends with your wife.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Hopefully it all goes good for you.

I met with a few folk who's changed to their truer self.. It only made them more beautiful both inner and outer self. Good luck

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By *hickennchipsWoman
over a year ago

up above the streets and houses

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By *hickennchipsWoman
over a year ago

up above the streets and houses

Go you!

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Are you happy in yourself?

Have you had any regrets?

I think you’ve done amazing so far

I am happy with myself.

I regret not having a prenuptial agreement as this has cost me about a 1/4 of a million.

Thank you xx

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By *epsonWoman
over a year ago

Biddulph

I think I have asked you enough questions

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I think I have asked you enough questions

Lol. Always open for more xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I've followed your updates for a while now and I genuinely think you're an inspiration. You're a brave, bold and kind person who deserves so much happiness. I wish you lots of luck on the rest of your journey. Xxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

It is brave of you to follow your true path, hope you find happiness and feel complete at the end of your long journey. All the best

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

My biggest fear;

Being left on the shelf because I’m not a cis woman and as a trans woman I won’t have a ‘little secret’ for the trans lovers.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

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Lots of us fear being left on the shelf or not being what people want.. However the most important relationship is the one with ourselves. Nurture that and apparently the rest will follow xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"[Removed by poster at 19/01/20 23:01:47]

Lots of us fear being left on the shelf or not being what people want.. However the most important relationship is the one with ourselves. Nurture that and apparently the rest will follow xx"

I hope so

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By *amissCouple
over a year ago

chelmsford

Bless you Rachel, good luck and be happy!

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By *nnocentimesMan
over a year ago

over there by that tree

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By *nnocentimesMan
over a year ago

over there by that tree

That’s great to hear Rachel - I’ve got someone close going through the same transition so can only wish you all the best on your journey xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

All the best x

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

Oh, one thing I missed out;

I was referred by my doc to the reassignment clinic two years ago.... still waiting.

If I followed the nhs route I’d be getting hormones in about two years from now. Perhaps surgery four years from now.

So I’m paying privately.

All the same hoops to jump through but a bit closer together.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx

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By *alking HeadMan
over a year ago

Bolton

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Once the house is finished, are you taking the dungarees off? I think a nice tight pencil skirt, high heels and very sheer stockings are whats needed. Youve definately got the legs and bum for them. A short sleeved white blouse, with a black bra (just for a hint of what lies beneath), and your hair tied back and pinned up.

Its just the way i like to picture you...a lot!

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Its just the way i like to picture you...a lot!

Lol. Thanks

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx"

Thank you.

Support network is shakey but I’m a Sagittarian so I always expect it to work out ok.

Hardest challenge..... motivating myself to finish this house to a high enough standard to make back the money spent. The lost earnings and then some extra to make it worthwhile....... while fighting depression and loneliness.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx

Thank you.

Support network is shakey but I’m a Sagittarian so I always expect it to work out ok.

Sounds very hard, wish you all the best... if you want to chat or have a safe rant by DM reach out

Midnight x

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx

Thank you.

Support network is shakey but I’m a Sagittarian so I always expect it to work out ok.

Sounds very hard, wish you all the best... if you want to chat or have a safe rant by DM reach out

Midnight x"

Thank you.

I’m burying myself in work and dieting hard to get in the best shape for convalescence. .

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx"

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

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By *epsonWoman
over a year ago

Biddulph

"Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx

Thank you.

Support network is shakey but I’m a Sagittarian so I always expect it to work out ok.

I will drive down if you need me don't forget. Give me a week, and you will want your own space again

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers. "

I know xxx MLS xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx "

soz

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx

soz"

It’s okay xx snogs next time xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx

soz

It’s okay xx snogs next time xx"

Just snogs?

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By *isaAndNicoleTransTV/TS
over a year ago

Southport / Ellesmere Port

Good luck Rachael

, its one hell of a journey and I'm so proud of you. Wishing you so much happiness for the future xxxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Hi Rachel just stumbled across your post, and I must say I’m not aware of your journey.

anyway I just wanna say you look fantastic and wishing you much happiness

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Good luck Rachael

, its one hell of a journey and I'm so proud of you. Wishing you so much happiness for the future xxxx "

Thanks honey xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Hi Rachel just stumbled across your post, and I must say I’m not aware of your journey.

anyway I just wanna say you look fantastic and wishing you much happiness "

Thank you xx

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By *olly_chromaticTV/TS
over a year ago

Stockport

Hugs. Polly xxx

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By *isaB45Woman
over a year ago

Fabville

Rachel..you know.

Hugs xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Well done xx

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By *he_virgin_maryWoman
over a year ago

Here, there and everywhere!

I've kind of followed you and your progress for some time and all I can say is - you go girl!

If you ever need a chat I'm here for you!

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

I’m off to the Nuffield hospital this morning to be burned between my legs again.

Laser hair removal for surgery

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By *aastyKnixWoman
over a year ago

Liverpool

"Oh, one thing I missed out;

I was referred by my doc to the reassignment clinic two years ago.... still waiting.

If I followed the nhs route I’d be getting hormones in about two years from now. Perhaps surgery four years from now.

So I’m paying privately.

All the same hoops to jump through but a bit closer together.

Have you given any thought to further counselling or after care, post surgery.

In my experience, that could be a good idea.There are big changes ahead and you may not cope in quite the way you expect to.

Wishing you well with what is to come. X

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By *hebritukCouple
over a year ago

London

Be who you are

All the best!!!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Hello Rachael , I’ve seen you a couple of times but not really spoken. It didn’t even occur to me that your were transgender , probably because it doesn’t matter one bit You look fabulous !

I’m a few years away from GRS with the NHS , not even had first appt with GIC yet , although I’ve been self medicating for 2 years now. I’m also a patent of 3 kids , have a gay boyfriend ( I’m not what he thought I was !) so that prob won’t end well ! Oh and I’ve got to divorce my wife before I can get a GRC.

Life is so complicated with many obstacles to get round.

From what I’ve seen and read , you’re a very strong , confident woman, who is going to get her rewards for being who you truly are

Very best wishes Rachael

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By *issmorganWoman
over a year ago

Calderdale innit

Aww that's fantastic

Really pleased that you're getting to live life your way xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You're an inspiration to others Rachael. I've thanked you before and I'll thank you again

Xxx

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By *andare63Man
over a year ago

oldham

I'd hazard a guess that even after having your nuts removed you'll still have bigger bollocks than most.

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By *ittleMissCaliWoman
over a year ago

all loved up

Sometimes the hardest thing to do is be yourself

But your doing it.. hope it all goes well.. x

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By *wisted999Man
over a year ago

North Bucks

So good to still be friends with the wife. Must have been very hard for her as well.

Good luck with the rest of the journey.

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By *epsonWoman
over a year ago

Biddulph

My post was ignored

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Wow, what a journey. Good luck, i can't imagine how emotional it's been for you to date.

Do you have a good enough support network? What is the hardest challenge for you at the moment?

Excited for you xx

Thank you.

Support network is shakey but I’m a Sagittarian so I always expect it to work out ok.

I will drive down if you need me don't forget. Give me a week, and you will want your own space again

Sorry I meant to reply to this sooner. I spent 4.5 hrs in the bath with the gin and tonic bottles last night so was a tad fuzzy!!

That’s an extremely kind offer. Thank you xxxx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Oh, one thing I missed out;

I was referred by my doc to the reassignment clinic two years ago.... still waiting.

If I followed the nhs route I’d be getting hormones in about two years from now. Perhaps surgery four years from now.

So I’m paying privately.

All the same hoops to jump through but a bit closer together.

Have you given any thought to further counselling or after care, post surgery.

In my experience, that could be a good idea.There are big changes ahead and you may not cope in quite the way you expect to.

Wishing you well with what is to come. X"

Thank you honey. I’ve arranged to stay at a friends place after surgery. She doesn’t cook at all tho so I’ll fill her freezer with stuff I’ll make to last us a couple of weeks or so.

Counselling after is something I haven’t actually given any thought to tho xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hello Rachael , I’ve seen you a couple of times but not really spoken. It didn’t even occur to me that your were transgender , probably because it doesn’t matter one bit You look fabulous !

Life is so complicated with many obstacles to get round.

From what I’ve seen and read , you’re a very strong , confident woman, who is going to get her rewards for being who you truly are

Very best wishes Rachael

Well thank you. I’ve kind of dropped saying I’m trans and am just getting on with life now so if people don’t always notice, all the better xxxx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

And thank you to all who’re offering support and well wishes.

I hope by openly posting others will have the confidence to be themselves.

We’re rarely alone.

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By *carlettxWoman
over a year ago

Essex

Wow what a journey and what a journey to come !

The very best of wishes to you , I commend your strength and courage to be who you want to be

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By *ordescourtMan
over a year ago

Warrington

Well done Rachel, I wish you the best of happiness, x

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By *ordescourtMan
over a year ago

Warrington

Well done Rachel, I wish you the best of happiness, x

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By *uenevereWoman
over a year ago

Scunthorpe

I have, sort of, followed your transformation and have to say that you are looking great.

It's not an easy thing to do. My ex husband decided not to continue with his gender reassignment after all.

To get so far, this is clearly the right path for you and I wish you all the best.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Congrats & Best Wishes sent your way with surgery X

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx

soz

It’s okay xx snogs next time xx

Just snogs?

Ok maybe a can of red death !!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Thank you for letting us into your life.

My hope is that some on Fab who understand very little about transition might educate themselves, especially as you are so open to question.

Much love to you. I hope your life becomes everything you would like it to be. Myself and Abby would welcome you anytime if you’re ever near to us and would like to visit for a natter.

V x

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By *ettyboop61Woman
over a year ago

St Neots

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Lots of us fear being left on the shelf or not being what people want.. However the most important relationship is the one with ourselves. Nurture that and apparently the rest will follow xx"

That's what I'm still! Trying to get the relationship with myself....

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By *ettyboop61Woman
over a year ago

St Neots

"And thank you to all who’re offering support and well wishes.

I hope by openly posting others will have the confidence to be themselves.

We’re rarely alone.

Well done Rachel to go with your heart.....life is very cruel and we need to be who we want to be

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By *hubaysiWoman
over a year ago

Leeds

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Its just the way i like to picture you...a lot!

Wow.....

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx

soz

It’s okay xx snogs next time xx

Just snogs?

Ok maybe a can of red death !!"

You smooth bugger

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I have, sort of, followed your transformation and have to say that you are looking great.

It's not an easy thing to do. My ex husband decided not to continue with his gender reassignment after all.

To get so far, this is clearly the right path for you and I wish you all the best."

It’s not easy for any of us xx

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Thank you for letting us into your life.

My hope is that some on Fab who understand very little about transition might educate themselves, especially as you are so open to question.

Much love to you. I hope your life becomes everything you would like it to be. Myself and Abby would welcome you anytime if you’re ever near to us and would like to visit for a natter.

V x"

Thank you. I’m up for that xx

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By *igerlilycubWoman
over a year ago

Lancashire

Wow amazing always be you xx

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By *alcon43Woman
over a year ago

Paisley

Shame your so far away. You look amazing and I know it’s not an easy journey. You’ll find out who your friends are and I’m sure you’ll make new ones along the way.

You’ll find someone who loves you for who you are not what you are.

I have a friend who is at the start of their journey. I look forward to following your progress. x

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Shame your so far away. You look amazing and I know it’s not an easy journey. You’ll find out who your friends are and I’m sure you’ll make new ones along the way.

You’ll find someone who loves you for who you are not what you are.

I have a friend who is at the start of their journey. I look forward to following your progress. x"

I don’t think there is an end to it. Surgery is just another door to pass through x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Wishing you a happy future hun. Best of luck and enjoy your journey.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Thank you for letting us into your life.

My hope is that some on Fab who understand very little about transition might educate themselves, especially as you are so open to question.

Much love to you. I hope your life becomes everything you would like it to be. Myself and Abby would welcome you anytime if you’re ever near to us and would like to visit for a natter.

V x

Thank you. I’m up for that xx"

That should have read “questions” not question!

And that’s great to hear. Don’t forget! X

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Well it’s been a long time since I posted an update.

For those who don’t know me; I’m transgender and I’ve documented some of my journey on here.

For those who don’t give a fuck, fuck off to another thread

So.......

Update;

I’m now single; my wife decided she didn’t want to support me emotionally anymore and wanted a life without me. I get that. Still friends.

Tried having a boyfriend for about 7 months and that went well until I said I was going for surgery..... damn. Hey ho.

So; to date. I’ve been on hormones over two years. Spent lots having my Homer Simpson style stubble lasered off.

My body and face have taken a more feminine look with the hormones.

My bald spot grew over as I grew my hair.

I’ve been living as me for two years, since changing my name to Rachael and binning everything male from my wardrobe.

Almost everyone I know accepts me as me. A few have fallen by the wayside.

So I’ve thrown all my security away. Jacked my job in as my wife left and I’m now at home trying to finish the house development project to claw a little back.

My future is very uncertain but I’m focussed on finishing the house and selling it.

I have two psychiatric assessments to get through and, if they clear me, I’ll be going under the knife to have my testicles removed and my penis turned inside out at the beginning of August.

The recovery is long. I’m hoping by next Christmas I’ll be feeling myself and getting fit again.

Any questions?

Feel free to ask.

Good look Rachel, my ts gf is on the same journey but not so far along.

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

"Hugs and big kisses from this old stoker xx

Thank you. I was a wafu on invince. Lived and partied with the stokers.

I know xxx MLS xx

soz

It’s okay xx snogs next time xx

Just snogs?

Ok maybe a can of red death !!

You smooth bugger

Well what did you expect....a game of uckers as well....now that would be smooth.

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By *entleman55Man
over a year ago

S’th West Mc/r

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By *edVelveteenCouple
over a year ago

Heaven in the Midlands

Good luck with everything. And congratulations on having the courage to be who you feel you really are.

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By *ady LickWoman
over a year ago

Northampton Somewhere

I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids)."

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Wishing you all the best for the future Rachael. I'm just starting out on this journey so have a long way to go.

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over a year ago

"Wishing you all the best for the future Rachael. I'm just starting out on this journey so have a long way to go.

Thank you. Feel free to pm if you need to chat or want to ask anything x

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By *ady LickWoman
over a year ago

Northampton Somewhere

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X"

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?"

Post op and healed; off the scale.

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By *ady LickWoman
over a year ago

Northampton Somewhere

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?

Post op and healed; off the scale. "

Yes!!!!

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?

Post op and healed; off the scale.

Yes!!!!

First job will be underwear shopping to buy the things that don’t work for my current shape.

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By *ady LickWoman
over a year ago

Northampton Somewhere

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?

Post op and healed; off the scale.

Yes!!!!

First job will be underwear shopping to buy the things that don’t work for my current shape.

Obviously! Glad you have your priorities in place

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By *exsenceCouple
over a year ago

stalybridge

So happy for you and so brave of you to become your true self, my niece is at the being of her journey of becoming a man and she has all the support of the family x

Good luck to you x

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"So happy for you and so brave of you to become your true self, my niece is at the being of her journey of becoming a man and she has all the support of the family x

Good luck to you x"

I suspect you mean your nephew and he is at the beginning of his journey, but gendered that way for clarity

Thank you x

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I think you're amazing and hope your opening goes well.

I'd like to ask you something if you don't mind, don't answer if you don't want to. I was just wondering if you have the support of your children. (I'm sure I've read previously that you have kids).

Lol. If I don’t want to, trust me; I wouldn’t.

Yes, I have the support of my children. X

I knew that really, I was being polite

That's great to hear.

How excited are you out of 10 about post OP?

Post op and healed; off the scale.

Yes!!!!

First job will be underwear shopping to buy the things that don’t work for my current shape.

Obviously! Glad you have your priorities in place

Matching knickers

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

This is the first time I've heard any of your journey but I would like to say congratulations and i hope everything goes smoothly and wish you all the luck in the world with the rest of your journey

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By *ackinabox19Man
over a year ago

Harrogate

I don’t really have a question but did want to say that I do hope all goes well for you and I hope you have a very happy future

I’m sure your journey and story will be inspiration for others on a similar path xx

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By *rmbtsTV/TS
over a year ago

stockport

Thanks for sharing your story and the truth and honesty of your journey sweet

Sharing unconditionally to the world outside is had and even harder without a support network or someone to share it with, so posts like this will help other s

Glad your at one with yourself,and getting on girl trying to conform to society takes it’s told if your different and can take people to dark places

Good luck with the future and all it brings,

Emma

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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Thanks for sharing your story and the truth and honesty of your journey sweet

Sharing unconditionally to the world outside is had and even harder without a support network or someone to share it with, so posts like this will help other s

Glad your at one with yourself,and getting on girl trying to conform to society takes it’s told if your different and can take people to dark places

Good luck with the future and all it brings,

Emma "

I’ve certainly had my dips into those dark places. I posted a thread about loneliness a few weeks ago and realised I was very close to becoming another statistic at that point.

I’m in a much better place now tho.

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By *aughtierthanyourealiseMan
over a year ago

Widnes

I don't think I've ever spoke to you before but genuinely with the upmost sincerity I wish all the best of luck/prosperity/happiness

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over a year ago

"I don't think I've ever spoke to you before but genuinely with the upmost sincerity I wish all the best of luck/prosperity/happiness "

Thank you x

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By *atex and KinkCouple
over a year ago

Edinburgh

Wishing you all the best Rachael.

The last hurdles are always the toughest, but thd red ribbon is there waiting for you. And your friends old and new will be with you all the way to the finish and beyond...

Best wishes xxx

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over a year ago

"Are you happy in yourself?

Have you had any regrets?

I think you’ve done amazing so far

I am happy with myself.

I regret not having a prenuptial agreement as this has cost me about a 1/4 of a million.

Thank you xx"

I was going to say, you must be financially secure for you and your wife to break up without selling giving her half the home

When I broke from my wife I gave her half of all we owned

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By *aughtierthanyourealiseMan
over a year ago

Widnes

"I don't think I've ever spoke to you before but genuinely with the upmost sincerity I wish all the best of luck/prosperity/happiness

Thank you x"

Most welcome x

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By *eannaTV/TS
over a year ago

Cwmfelifach, nr Newport

"Sorry for the bad parts but congratulations on the good and getting to be who you truly are. I'm sure I can say this with everyone behind me, we all wish you the best of luck

Totally agree 100%

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over a year ago

"Are you happy in yourself?

Have you had any regrets?

I think you’ve done amazing so far

I am happy with myself.

I regret not having a prenuptial agreement as this has cost me about a 1/4 of a million.

Thank you xx

I was going to say, you must be financially secure for you and your wife to break up without selling giving her half the home

When I broke from my wife I gave her half of all we owned"

I will be selling. I’ll be very sad to though.

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