I would like to hear from any married couples who can offer me some help/advice regarding a dilema that i often think about.
I have a problem, and need help.
Let me explain, I have on and off been into the swinging scene for over 10 years now. As a couple with some ex girlfriends, also with some "friends with benifits" and fuck buddies etc etc.
A few years ago I decided to get married to a girl who I had NOT ever been swinging with, but she does know about my past experiences and kind of shows interest once in a while. Its her that brings the subject up, not me.
Me and my wife are always falling out, splitting up, getting back together etc etc and to be totally honest with each other getting married for us was a mistake really. We got on better in the early days. Now things seem stale between us.
About a year ago she had a very short affair with some guy who was just after a quick thrill while we were on one of our many break ups.
We soon got back together afterwards and tried to work things out betwwen us.
Now regarding her fling with this other guy, I had to try and forgive an forget. knowing that I myself am not inocent of the same thing I decided to let it go and carry on with things.
When we are together and things are ok between us she asked me one day if I would take her to one of those clubs I use to go too?. We chatted about it and between us made some rules. We only aggreed to go because she said "she only wanted to have a look around to see what its like". I agreed on the understanding that we would only fuck each other and the only other thing we may do is fuck publicly being watched. (which is a great turn on for me). So, off we went to a club and did exactly that. We both had a nice evening out but have never returned since.
Now as I menioned earlier we are often splitting up, getting back together, threatening divorce and all that stuff. Its geting like a joke between us now.
In the back of my mind I do at times think to myself "what if ?". What if we went swinging again and let things go further next time !!!.
I have this issue with it, because my wife is the kind of woman who looks bloody amazing when she gets dressed up. And I feel that I would be hurt by the idea of another guy fucking her. I know what her answer is when I put my view across, she just says well you can fuck another woman, while I watch. she says she would enjoy that. trouble is, I know her and I know that if I did allow us to cross that bridge it would all be thrown up in a later argument. She also often asks me, "why did you go swinging with your ex,s but you wont go with me?". My answer is always the same "its because some of those people I had attended swinging clubs with were either just fuck buddies, or as for my 2 or 3 ex girlfriends I didnt really feel enough love for them to be concerned if it broke us up. Your different, I married you, and now your the mother of my child. They other girls I suppose I didn really love. but I do you".
So, any other folk out there got any advice how to handle my jelosy once we have over stepped the hurdle.
Would love to hear from you and help me make my mind up.
Hear it said that swinging can bring you closer together. But on the other hand ! |
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Mistress x
