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By *x Smith OP Man
over a year ago
East Lancs |
I’m 43, I’m bi and I’ve been out since I was 18, though to many that I can’t be bothered informing/ reminding of my biness, I guess I present as gay. I’ve been in a gay-facing relationship (as they say) for over a decade, and engaged. To my parent’s, I’ve been out as long as I’ve had this relationship (minus a couple of months). I don’t mention the bi to them, let them think I’m late-out gay.
This covid period has been pretty hard for me, as it has been for many. I’ve had nobody near to me die, so I count myself lucky on that count, but haven’t we all made sacrifices, or changed our lifestyles since this time two years ago?
So my fella and I, we don’t fuck. We snuggle, spoon, smooch, and stroke, and are intimate in all other ways, but don’t get any more sexual than a dry-hump. Medication altered his sex drive (but not the blood-flow) some years ago and I’ve been satisfying myself with wanks and very occasionally, with encouragement from my partner, I’ve met other guys. Last time I looked for a sexual partner was exactly 2 years ago, between Christmas and the New Year, in a sauna in Manchester. I wasn’t successful that night.
But, I got through 2020 well enough. Following NHS guidelines pretty closely, I got no shags, no surprises there really. In 2021, from literally the first week in January, I’ve been poorly with what may have been bladder cancer, but more likely a benign internal wart that bled and caused pain when I pissed. Whatever it was, I had an operation and it was removed in May and for a while, I was on the mend.
At the beginning of August, I had a bladder infection that got in my kidney briefly, and then just when everything seemed right, I got a secondary infection in my right nut and the tubes around it, which hospitalised me briefly and took a long time to shake off with loads of pills. All told, I was ill for about 7 weeks until near the end of September. So it wasn’t the delta variant but my own health that kept me from venturing out this summer. I’m still awaiting the results of some tests from November to let me know if I’m truly in the clear.
I’ve had my third vaccination, and my partner has asked that I still be cautious and not seek new connections until we see how the ol’ omicron variant pans out. Tentatively, I’m gonna say that I’m looking for new FWBs from early March. MM, MF couples and adventurous single, ethically polyamorous M/F/T/NB people, north-west England, see my profile for more info.
It is going to be a loooooooong couple of months… gods know I’ve gone long enough since the last top, bottom or straight shag, I can get through the next couple of months.!With nearly 2 years of Covid, and 12 months since the start of the illnesses, I have a fear of a recurrence or something else will go wrong with my genitals between now and when I’m ready to meet or go to clubs around March. Two months. Deep breath. Two months.
So, here’s me. Say hi sometime. |
