I’ve always been confused, it’s hard to admit. Since I was about 13/14. I remember finding my mums dildo in her bedside draw whilst looking for something before my shower. I’d never seen porn before or even had anything taint me. I sat on it. It went all the way in, no lube, nothing, all 7 inches inside me. I felt amazing.
The next few years nothing happened, it was weeks before my 16th birthday and me thinking now that I was more grown up, I decided to watch porn. I explored and anything made me hard at that age. I eventually found girls with strap ons fucking each other - I loved it, its all I watched for weeks. I went back to the same channels on the same porn sites and eventually I stumbled across a woman, big breasts, good figure but with a cock. I was confused but I was solid, the hardest I’ve ever been.
All I searches was “shemale toys” in the search bar. All I wanted to see was a girl with a cock putting things in their bum. It was amazing.
Before long I thought “I want to be like her, I want that”. I started to find things to put up me, carrots, cucumber, fingers. Eventually I remembered, I found the holy grail, my mums toy. I used it everyday when she was out, I tried to become more and more like the girl I had seen but I needed more. I joined sites like this one and others. I needed a real cock. I needed cum inside me to become who I wanted to be.
I had my first meet, my first ones were glory hole meets that I made from a sheet of tarpaulin. A cock came through the whole, I sucked, I didn’t know how to but it felt natural, I could feel groans from the other side and I was hoping I was pleasing him. I backed slowly onto the cock and he groaned loudly. I kept moving back and forth and eventually he ripped the sheet down and grabbed my waist, he pounded me until he came, he called me a good little slut, slapped my arse and left. It was amazing.
This still wasn’t enough for me, I was a hopeless student and had nothing going for me, I couldn’t get a job, nobody wanted me. I got a sugar daddy. He was about 30 years older than me and gave me £30 every week. He bought me cute undies and the occasional toy. It didn’t last long though, he said I wasn’t what he wanted and we never spoke again.
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