FabSwingers.com forum: Do you want this?

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

Want?

We stare at each other. Silent for an eon.

"Do you want this?"

I cannot answer. Part of me does not want this, does not like how you make me feel, how you feed the desire. Desire, desire and need are more accurate. I need this, I desire this, I crave it.

No sound, our breathing hushed, each waiting, hoping. I could say no. I could deny it and walk away. Open the door behind me and leave. I am not trapped by anything or anyone that is not me. My need, my desperate need brought me here and keeps me here.

Trembling legs and butterflies in my stomach. If I say yes, anything might happen. Yes means permission, yes means I give up control. If I say no, I feed the fear in me, I deny my desires and I will always wonder.

The question is not repeated but like two enemies, two lovers, our eyes remain locked.

I whisper my answer.