FabSwingers.com forum: Sexualising my cheating ex

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

About 8 years ago I discovered my then girlfriend had been having an affair with her boss - we'd been going wrong for a while, and so this was the catalyst that broke us up!

As time went on I found myself getting more and more turned on about her cheating.... I never knew much about the guy apart from him being tall and black, but I found myself getting seriously turned on by the thought of what she might have been getting up to!

I always got turned on by slutty behaviour, and knowing a girl's history was always a thing for me ... but until then I never considered cuckoldry as a something that would do things to me!

Part of me looks back and wishes I'd found out more, that I hadn't had such a knee jerk reaction, maybe even allowed it to continue - but the other part of me feel anxiety about my masculinity being brought into question.

It's an exceptionally hot thought - watching my girl sucking and fucking someone so different to myself.

But there's also the anxiety element, like how would I be in a real-life situation, where I really have no control over what she does.

Want, don't want, want, don't want.