This just a catch-up post of the whole of part 1 if anyone wants to read it in full since the thread was closed.
Journal of an unhappily married man. (Part 1)
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Wed, May 8th 2019
Beth is back at work. Missed seeing those full, round tits in the tight blouses she wears. Her husband has nothing to complain about.
Kate on at me again when I got in from work to get the guttering fixed. Not sure when I am supposed to sort that with this rain we’ve been having but hey-ho. She fucked off out with Janine after we ate. Some leaving party for someone she works with. Wondering if it was actually another fella. At least one of us would be getting some (ha-ha)
Went on z-tube after the dishes. There was a new Samantha Sanders video, someone had uploaded. She was covering her tits in baby oil and it made them look fucking amazing but I prefer the ones where she is just wearing lingerie. I like her in soft colours. Makes her look sexier. What I wouldn’t give for an hour with her! Added to my faves anyway - got about twenty vids of her now.
Was thinking about Beth and the blouse she had on today. It was so see-through, you could see she had a pink bra underneath. Samantha was on the computer but it was Beth riding my cock while I wanked.
I don’t know why I am so obsessed with her. She is married and so am I.
Must try to be a better husband.
Just wish Kate would show some interest now and again.
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Fri, May 10th 2019
Got Steve from work coming over tomorrow to help with the gutters. Should keep Kate’s face happy.
Interrupted in the shower this morning. Katy was banging on the bathroom door while I was knocking one out.
Finished off in the bedroom sniffing her used knickers from yesterday. Total mess in her knickers, maybe she did get fucked on Wednesday when she went out. It made me harder than I have ever been, using her knickers.
Had to hurry when she finished in the toilet.
Took them to work. Have been going in an hour earlier since April to avoid the traffic on the A194. Gives me time to scroll through Beth’s facebook and Insta. She uploaded one last week when she was in Benidorm with her bloke. Short bikini and everything. Couldn’t believe it when I saw it. Saved it straight to my phone. Jizzed looking at it, like three times this week. What a pair that lass has!
Kate would fucking freak if she ever saw that folder on my phone.
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Sat, May 11th 2019
Steve came over and Kate was all smiles and cups of tea.
He knows better than that. His wife’s the same. Maybe they went to the same wife's school. Teaching them how to shut their legs as soon as the ring goes on. Haha.
Got the damage patched up but I need to get the pointing done under the eves - will phone around next week.
Steve is having a hard time with his missus too. He is like a walking bank-card for her apparently. I would say that but we’ve got no spare money so Kate’s onto nothing there.
Pub at night with Kate. Sat staring into our drinks, watching a couple of hen partys fall about the pub. Was funny and a bit horny as well. Loads of young lads trying their hand with them. One of them came staggering out the gents when I was going in for a piss. Dirty mare.
Felt horrible after I spunked over the pic of Beth in her bikini with Kate snoring next to me in bed. Such a shit husband. Maybe I will delete them and try to be better.
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Sun, May 12th 2019
Cut the grass in the morning. Took the risk even though it had been raining all week. The excitement I have in my life! Whether the grass will cut or not!
More like the things I do to keep Kate’s face straight.
She’s been cagey with her phone since she went to the pub that night. Angles it away from me when she gets a message and always puts it face down when she leaves the room.
Work tomorrow. Got some pork pies for my desk drawer.
Nothing on Beth’s feeds over the weekend. Must be having a quiet one. Probably getting fucked all over by her bloke. Lucky sod.
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Mon, May 13th 2019
Walked in on Kate in the shower, using the nozzle on her clit and pulling at her tits all moaning and shaking - totally caught her in the middle of a wank!
She screamed at me to get out and followed me out and shouted at me for bursting in on her.
Didn’t talk at all after that.
Didn’t enjoy playing over Beth’s pics as much in the toilets at work. Kept thinking about catching Kate wanking.
Strangely turned on by it. I thought she was past all that.
Saw Steve at the planning meeting in the afternoon - he bought that new Kia he was going on about - wish we had that sort of money. Ours is never out the garage.
Beth came by to ask about if Paul, the new guy who sits across from me had filled out his paperwork for the training he just finished. I didn’t know but I hope she didn’t notice me looking at her tits too much. Such a perv. I need to stop. Had a wank over the bikini pic in the toilets again. I really need to sort myself out. But she smells so fucking good too.
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Tue, May 14th 2019
Beth was wearing a baggy jumper today. Cock blocker! Haha. She would look hot as fuck in a sack, that one though.
Traffic was bad on the way home. Might have to leave a bit later to avoid the worst.
Kate would love that. Probably think I had someone on the side. As if.
I fucking wish.
Went in the bath after the washing up and played thinking about her standing a few feet away playing with her fanny. Made me pretty horny. Didn’t cum though. It floats and sticks in your hair.
Found a little plastic phone stand, folded up, in amongst the shampoo bottles when I was getting washed. Not sure why we have a phone stand at the top of the bath. I usually just hold mine.
Early night. Asleep before Kate. She was on her phone. Smirking at something.
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Wed, May 15th 2019
Woke up full of the joys. Am determined to stop wanking over Beth. Am such a loser. I need to be getting it at home. Made a promise to myself to try and get some this weekend.
Phoned a couple of builders about the pointing on the house. One of them is coming next Monday.
No traffic at all on main part of the 194. Probably a match on or something.
Trimmed pubes and shaved rest of cock, ready for weekend - looks much better shaved and it looks bigger. Should try and keep it like that. Maybe that’s why Kate doesn’t like it anymore. Maybe I need to keep it looking good.
Got a whatsapp off Kate at lunch asking if she knew any phone repair shops and what they charged for a new screen. Asked her how it got cracked. She doesn’t know.
Watched some fly-on-the-wall medical programme at night while Kate sat on her phone.
New insta pic on Beth’s feed too. Sneaky play in the toilet before bed. Didn’t cum. Saving it for weekend. I really need to stop looking at her pictures though.
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Thu, May 16th 2019
Asked Kate if she wants to do something on Saturday night but she says she is going to a Eurovision party. Fucks my plans up.
That was it though. Didn’t ask if I wanted to go too. Just her, and her mates.
This is shit.
I need to sort this out. It’s like living half a life. I need sex. I need my wife.
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Fri, May 17th 2019
Speaking to Paul, the new guy, this morning and he is a bit of a perv as well. He put me onto this site called Fabswingers. Made a profile on my dinner break and fuck me, if it isn’t as horny as fuck! There’s a thing for seeing who else is on it, around you and there must have been thirty different profiles within half a mile! There’s pics as well!
After tea, made an excuse to go up and sort the loft while Kate watched telly downstairs. Some amazing looking women on there. Was secretly hoping to find a picture of Beth. Made a mess with spunk everywhere and had to use one an old tea towel we put in the loft ages ago. Totally sorted me out though. Amazing site.
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Sat, May 18th 2019
Kate got her phone fixed on Keppel Street. Not bad for sixty quid. New screen protector as well.
On Fabswingers the whole time she was out though. I am going to wear my cock out at this rate.
Brought the washing in when it started to cloud over. Was dry anyway.
Walked in one Kate putting the washing away and she was having a sort out. She was holding a bra and suspenders against herself, looking in the mirror when I walked in. Had forgot I even bought her those. I think I only saw her in them once, on boxing day night after she had a few drinks. She was quick to throw them back in the drawer though. Hopefully she was checking to see if she still fits them so she can wear them for me but she didn’ seem too pleased I caught her trying them against herself.
They weren’t cheap and she looked amazing in them.
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Sun, May 19th 2019
We came last in Eurovision. Oh well.
At least I came. Haha.
Kate didn’t back in until after one and was pissed. I took the chance when she got into bed and got a finger inside her. She was soaking. She woke up long enough to tell me to hurry up if I was going to shag her. Was fucking amazing. She was so wet. Can’t remember her ever being that wet. Pretty proud of the amount of spunk I had leaking out of her after, as well. Never shot that much ever!
I am back in the game!
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Mon, May 20th 2019
Got into the office in a much better mood. Surprising how much better you feel when you get some. It’s like my marriage is working properly again. I just need to get her pissed more often so she’ll let me on. Haha.
Builder came round for the quote. Good price too.
Kate was all sweetness and light. Offered him a cup of tea. Wondered what it would be like if I hadn’t been home and she had flirted with him for a better price or maybe even sucked his cock.
The thought of her with another bloke made me so horny I had to have a quick wank in the toilet later to take the edge off. Don’t know why that would make me feel so horny. Why would it get me hard to watch my wife with another bloke?
Found a woman on Fab who has the same build and body type as Beth from work. She was the wife in a couples profile. Must be amazing to have a wife like that.
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Tue, May 21st 2019
Changed my bio on Fab so it says a bit more about me. I want to start messaging women and couples and want them to think I am single. Shouldn’t be that hard once they see I am single.
Feels a bit wrong to lie to them but what’s the harm. It’s only a chat.
Wanking way too much at the minute. The usual over Beth’s pics this morning in the work toilets, again at lunchtime for same thing. To be fair, I saw her in Denise's office, bending over her desk and kept imagining what it would be like to lift her dress up and pull her knickers down and cup her tits while I slide my cock in her. There I go again. I can’t help myself.
Kate was in a mood when I got in. Kept looking at her phone even though she wasn’t getting any notifications. Asked her if there was anything wrong. She just shrugged it off. Hope she is okay.
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Wed, May 22nd 2019
Kate still in a mood as I left for work. Not sure what’s up.
Sent my first message to that couple on Fab. I figure they have their own place so I can go to theirs and we can fuck there. I asked if I could watch or help please her. The wife in the couple is BBW like Kate and Beth and Samantha Sanders on my videos. Nice big boobs too. Had a good wank in the toilets over three of her pics. There’s an amazing one of her bent over. It’s easy to imagine her husband asking me to lick her out after he had fucked her. Made my cock mega hard. Came loads. Not as much as the other night inside Kate though.
Had a look around Steve’s new car at lunch. He reckons he got some when his wife got her first drive in it. Maybe that’s what I need to do. Buy us a new car. Maybe that’ll cheer Kate up. Not sure how we can afford that though.
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Thu, May 23rd 2019
No reply from that couple on Fab. They've read it but haven't replied. Will wait for a bit. Give them a few days.
Followed a link on Fab to a store that does sex toys. Thought about getting something called a flesh light. Meant to be as good as the real thing, according to the reviews. Expensive as fuck though. Doubt I would get that one past Kate on the credit card. And where would I hide it? I've only got four drawers and she would fucking flip if she found it.
Found some cheaper ones on eBay. Ordered one for eight quid that looks like a fanny with a pair of tits on the end. Excited for it coming.
Next door’s wife was taking their rubbish out to their wheelie bin as I was taking ours out. Noticed she wasn’t wearing a bra under her thin t-shirt. Got massive milkers. Hadn’t noticed before. Wonder if she’s on Fab.
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Fri, May 24th 2019
Kate out again. Different friend this time. Someone from work I don’t know but she took the car so she won’t be drinking. No pussy for me tonight then!
She must be feeling the cold as it looked like she was wearing her long coat when she stuck her head round the door as she was leaving.
Still no reply from the couple on Fab. Tried to send them another message but the site warned me about sending messages to people who haven’t replied to the first message. Left it.
Did some odds and ends to tidy the place up and earn some points with Kate when she got in and put the washing away. She must have moved that bra and suspenders I caught her trying on the other day as they weren’t in with the rest of her knickers.
Pulled a pair of her used knicks from the laundry as I was loading the machine. They were nice and dirty where it counts. Swear my cum must still be leaking out from last week. Shot a nice fresh load into them before I stuck them in the machine with the rest of the washing.
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Sat, May 25th 2019
Didn’t hear Kate get in last night.
Must have been late.
Whatever, she had unloaded the washer as I was getting up and was putting another load in. Maybe she spilled something on her at the pub.
Thinking I might message a different couple on Fab. Those last ones don’t seem very interested.
The sex toy came in the afternoon. Bloody pleased too as Kate had gone for a lie down.
The good part is it’s small and makes my cock look massive and the bad part is, it’s absolute shit and I might as well use my fucking hand. There’s eight quid I won’t see again!
Went to empty the machine when Kate went for her lie down and took out her small dress, some stockings and that bra and suspender set I was wondering about. There weren’t any knickers though. Maybe she had kept them on and gone to bed in them. More than likely.
Took her a cup of tea at four to wake her up. Hung around while she got up to go for a pee and she wasn’t wearing any knicks under her nightie. Strange.
Watched some telly at night. Kate at other end of settee on her phone again. Getting to be a habit.
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Sun, May 26th 2019
Came in from mowing the lawn thinking about asking Kate about the underwear and why she didn't wear it for me and Kate was in a mood. Stomping around and banging cupboard doors.
Asked her what was up and she just saying nothing. Cannot do anything when she is like that.
Went through to the kitchen and the rubber fanny was square in the middle of the kitchen bench.
She had found my sex toy.
She demanded to know why the fuck I was buying sex toys and was that why I didn't go anywhere near her anymore. The fucking cheek of it!
It's her who keeps knocking me back. We argued back and forth with it sat there on the bench until she picked it up and chucked it at my face and stormed out and I heard the front door go and the car pulling off the drive.
It was four o'clock before she got back.
She seemed calmer but it was all one word answers to questions for the rest of the night.
Didn't find out about the underwear. Will maybe ask when she's talking to me.
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Mon, May 27th 2019
Dentist at eleven this morning. Came home to brush my teeth before going.
Kate always leaves after me and she had been trying new stuff on in the bedroom.
There was an Ann Summers bag on the bed with a receipt from yesterday afternoon. So that's where she had been when she stormed out.
It was all in one body suit and when I sniffed the gusset it smelled of her pussy and was still a bit wet in places. The standing mirror we usually have in the corner was in a different place too.
She must have been trying her new stuff on and seeing what she looked like.
I left it where it was and went to the dentist and the rest of the day but when I came home it was all gone as Kate gets in before me usually.
Kept trying to find a way to ask her about it during the evening but she is still not talking to me and it didn't happen.
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Tue May 28th 2019
Wanked over a new insta picture of Beth in the toilet this morning. She was wearing a tight top that wasn't revealing but it showed her big hips and tits. It's easier to look at her pics and wank and distract myself from how shit it's got at home with Kate.
She went in the bath after tea. She had been cooking for us which was nice. She had left her iPad open at the recipe on the kitchen bench when she went upstairs for her bath.
Her iPad kept making notification noises and I checked what they were for.
It was her facebook messenger. She was chatting with someone upstairs in the bath and I could see what they were saying.
His name was Craig and he had a policeman's hat for his picture so I guessed he was on the force.
It started out with him asking her about her day but it quickly changed to him sending her a shot of him in the bath. He kept asking for a picture of her in the bath. She kept saying no.
Then I heard the bathroom door close and then a picture of her knees appeared, looking down over herself in the bath.
He asked for more and she sent another one. It was a close up of her cleavage with bubbles over it. The chat was getting hotter.
And so was I.
I even got my cock out as it was hard and I wanked while I stared at the conversation on the screen. It was hot as fuck but I wasn't sure why.
There wasn't any more pictures after that and the conversation fizzled out so I pulled my phone out and took a picture of the screen so I had some proof.
I had something to confront her with the same way she ambushed me with the rubber fanny,
She went straight to bed to sleep after so I left it for the night. I need to think about this.
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Wed, May 29th 2019
Tugged my cock in the works toilets before everyone got in, looking at the photo of the conversation Kate had last night. All sorts of stuff going through my head. Was she going to fuck him? Had she already fucked him?
Paul was in my face about a couple he had met last night through Fabswingers when I got to my desk. He had been chatting to them for ages and they had asked him around and when the husband had taken him to the bedroom his wife was tied up and wearing all kinky underwear and he asked Paul where he wanted to kiss her first and Paul had gone straight for the fanny. I said I would have gone for the tits and he said they were too big and he doesn't like them too big. Can tits be too big?
Beth's are just the right size. Would love to kiss them.
Annette was around when I got in from work. She is Kate's best friend at the minute. Poisonous and an utter bitch, always looking to stir shit when ever she can. Her and Kate were giggling like a pair of schoolgirls when I came in, looking at her phone.
One guess what they were laughing at. How about how much her new facebook friend wants to fuck her, maybe or how much she thinks I am a total tool for being side-lined for someone she doesn't even know.
I asked Kate if there was anything for tea or whether I was making just for me. She looked at Annette and asked if she wanted to go to the pub.
So they fucked off to the pub for their tea.
Apart from the fact I wanted to talk to her tonight, I was pissed off because she didn't even ask if I wanted to go. She's taking the piss now.
Hit Fabswingers hard. If Paul can get some action, so can I. Messaged nine couples. The trick is to copy and paste a message that makes them feel special and reply and let you come round and have a turn with their missus.
I was annoyed and I was going to show her two can play at this!
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Thu, May 30th 2019
Woke up sweating.
Was having a dream I was watching Kate getting strip searched and fucked by some copper and she kept telling him it wasn't her, he had the wrong woman but she kept flicking between wanting it and trying to tell him she didn't do it, whatever it was. Weird!
It made my cock so hard I was bursting for a piss but I couldn't go because my hard-on wouldn't go down.
I think I am fucked up in the head.
Managed to get Kate to sit and talk to me about whether she is happy the way we are at the minute. I could have asked about Craig and the selfies but I wanted to go in slow.
She said she sometimes felt like we lost whatever we had and wishes I wouldn't piss her off so much. She said she sometimes thinks about leaving because she is so bored.
I told her I felt the same but I had never thought about leaving.
We agreed to give each other a bit of space for a while and try and remember why we got together in the first place. Part of the agreement was 'hands off'. She didn't want to feel like a piece of meat I was only interested in for a quick fuck on a night time.
I said I would keep my hands to myself but hugging was still allowed. So we hugged.
It's a relief but thinking about her with Craig still gets me horny. It's like she has this dirty, cheating side I don't get to see.
I want to see it. I want her to feel comfortable showing it to me. I want us to enjoy it together.
Whatever, at least we had a hug before bed.
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Fri, May 31st 2019
Slept way more peacefully.
Sent Kate a text from work to let her know I appreciated her being so open and honest about how she felt last night.
Got a text back saying how she was really looking forward to bouncing up and down on my cock tonight and how she was going to stuff her used panties in my mouth and ride my face.
Massive change of tune but I loved it.
I don't know why, maybe it was just feeling more relaxed but I also told Beth at work, she looked really nice too and asked her if she had done her hair different today and she said yes, she had and she thanked me for noticing. I got a real smile from her and it felt like a two way connection for the first time rather than the usual one sided way I play with myself looking at her pictures with her not knowing.
The world felt like a better place today. Not as confusing and difficult as it has been lately. More like I was allowed to be part of it.
Drove home really excited to see Kate.
We were going to fuck like we used to and everything was going to be sound as a pound with us again. No more Craig.
Except all I had waiting for me when I got in was a note on the kitchen bench saying she had to go out to meet a friend who was having some problems and my dinner was in the microwave.
Was disappointed and sent her a message saying I hoped her friend was okay but was looking forward to maybe doing all the face riding stuff when she got home.
I saw the ticks change colour on the message to say she had read it but she didn't reply all night so I lay in bed wanking over a new profile I found on Fabswingers where the videos were of the wife fucking different blokes while she sends him out for snacks and she calls him all sorts of names for believing she is sat at home patiently waiting for him to get back while she is riding strangers cocks and filming it to show him when he gets back.
Kate crept in around one am and I could tell she was trying not to wake me.
I was still half awake so I said goodnight.
She didn't say anything for a few seconds and then said that message she sent earlier wasn't for me, it was meant for someone else. She had sent it to the wrong person.
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Fri, May 31st 2019 (Part 2)
Kate had just admitted she had sent a message to another man saying she wanted to bounce on his cock and ride his face and was lying right beside me after she had just been with him.
It landed like a ton of bricks.
It all suddenly made sense.
My mind was racing. Did she have his spunk in her?
I turned just enough to look at her and without saying a word took control for the first time.
Reaching under her nightie I dipped a finger between her legs and her cunt was dripping with his spunk.
She looked at me like it was all about to end between us.
I brought my fingers up and licked them clean. It tasted like her cunt but it also had something else and I guessed it was cum and it tasted like dirty filthy sex and my cock lurched.
I told her I knew about Craig and I guessed she was cheating but it turned me on like mad and I wanted to be part of it.
She said she didn't know if she could do that.
I told her we will talk about this tomorrow. No Annette, no going to the pub, she will be home for dinner and we will be sorting this one way or another.
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Sat June 1st 2019
Had the house to myself all day as it was Kate's turn to cover the Saturday at work.
One reply from the couple I messaged on Fab but it was a thanks but no thanks.
Found a few couples not very far away from us. No faces but I recognised some of the places in their photos.
Tried to imagine what it would be like to have a couples profile on Fab for me and Kate. I wiped my messages and changed my bio to something simple so I could show it to Kate later if we got to that.
Couple of text messages through the day with Kate but they were all about the small stuff. Nothing about what we needed to talk about.
The hard part was going to be telling her how I knew about Craig without her thinking I was spying on her.
It never came up. She didn't ask. She must have been thinking about what she was going to say because I kept getting the same reply to every question. She just kept saying it was a bit of fun and it didn't mean anything.
So why was she fucking him if it was just fun and were there any others?
I told her about Fab but made on like it was something I had just heard about and showed her the site using my profile to log in. I figured she couldn't freak out too much about me making a profile for a swingers site seeing what she had been up to.
She seemed to be interested and agreed to make a couples profile so we are going to make one tomorrow and ended up taking a couple of pictures of her tits.
Cannot believe it's happening. We fucked for the first time since that night she was d*unk but she wasn't as wet and it occurred to me I might have been fucking her when she was full of someone else's spunk which just made my cock even harder.
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Sun, Jun 2nd 2019
Sat in the garden chatting about what we wanted to put on our profile and it was amazing. Kept having to shift my cock in my pants, I kept getting a semi, thinking about what we were doing and hearing what Kate liked and what she wanted to do when we met other guys.
It felt a bit like it was me driving it but never mind, at least she has agreed to it.
Kate doesn't want me fucking other women but she is okay for me to watch her with other men but she is really picky about who she will meet which I can understand.
I kept the site open on my phone all morning and afternoon and showed Kate when we got messages and she was interested in some of them but kept finding reasons for not wanting to meet them.
She is still being cagey about her phone and I asked her if she was still messaging Craig and she said no and she had not been in touch.
Something didn't feel right though.
Would you just stop texting someone you had been having an affair with?
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Mon, June 3rd 2019
Back to work.
I should have been walking on air but something felt wrong.
We had ninety three messages yesterday. At least half of them were local and would have been spot on. One bloke had a massive thick cock and I would have loved to see that stretching Kate's little hole.
She said she didn't like the way he only had cock pics. Fair enough but it was like that for all of them. She had a reason for not wanting to meet any of them.
Beth stopped by and was wearing heels for a change. They didn't half make her thighs and calves look amazing. I couldn't take my eyes off her as she walked away from me. Her arse looked amazing in her tight skirt as well.
Had a check of our messages on Fab at lunch time. More messages from guys offering all sorts of dirty things.
Spoke to Kate in the evening but I couldn't get her to commit to anything or agree to any one of the fifty odd new messages.
It's not meant to be like this. She is meant to want to fuck other guys. She has been doing it for the past few weeks that I know of.
Maybe it's not the blokes on Fab. Maybe it's because she wants the excitement of me not knowing she is doing it.
Will keep trying. What's the harm in keeping trying.
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Tue, Jun 4th 2019
Sat at work thinking of nothing in particular when it occured to me I should check her messenger chat.
If she is taking the piss and stringing me along and still talking with this copper, I will know.
And if she is still doing that she is not really wanting us to share this. She is ignoring the fact I want to be part of it.
Soon as I got in I waited for her to be out of the living room and first chance I got I opened her chat on her iPad and looked for him.
There was nothing. She had deleted it the conversation I had been watching.
I looked on her WhatsApp but there was nothing there from any men. But she could have deleted that too.
I needed to ask her so I did.
And again she denied it, saying it was just some fun and asking if we had any messages on Fabswingers.
I showed her the ones we had that day but low and behold none of them were her type.
She went upstairs with her iPad and I washed the dishes like the good little fucking spineless taken-for-granted cuck that I am.
The rest of the night she sat on her phone on the other settee. That bloody iphone is never out of her hand these days.
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