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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Me thinks there is a one sided point of _iew going on in this thread . So allow me to retort ( hillarious line from pulp fiction for all that dont know) . I'll hold my hands up right now and say yes i have cheated on here . I'm not proud of it and of what followed , in fact i probably think of it all at least once a week . So where to start , well obviously i had a girlfriend at the time im sure from her point of _iew things were going great from mine however they just seemed monotonous . We had been together for five years and nothing seemed to have changed . I met a couple from the net and things happened , they put me onto this site . I think initially it was the excitement , the newness of it all not to mention she was hot !! So we now start to poke around fab have a few meets here and there , things are going well so i thought . Then i met a girl and it became a regular thing . Now why did i do all this ? well as i've mentioned it was exciting and different and yes my ego had a large part to play in it as well . I'm not making excuses or justifying what i did just trying to give you an insight into the thinking i had at the time . In many ways my self esteem was very low but was masked by my sexual desires and conquests . In short i had a few issues going on upstairs , as i said not an excuse just hindsight . Anyway so this became a regular thing and the more i seen her the more i liked her until eventually i found myself in love with two women . Inevitably things came to a head . I was forced to pick and to my shame i reacted in what can only be described as a childish manner . I choose my girlfriend at the time despite deep down knowing that the relationship was fucked , guess i just wasnt ready to give up quite yet . You see i had already given up so much for her that i thought in my own arrogant messed up way that she owed me . As for the girl from fab , well you can probably guess she wasn't best pleased and i can't blame her . I had used and abused both to serve my own twisted ends and all to heal my own suffering . In the end all i did was hurt three people , my girlfriend , the girl from here and myself . Eventually she left me , i was devastated but the seeds were sown on here when i didn't think with my big head . So i guess you can call that justice . I'm not sure if this will illuminate you on folks reasons for it or not but im trying to without writing what can only be classed as a confessional essay . So there you go a brutaly honjest account of someone who has cheated and paid the price .......Guys and girls think very carefully first . |
If anything I think I like the fact I'm doing something I shouldn't be doing lol.
