FabSwingers.com forum: I would hate the sympathy

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

I don't care what haters say about this or how they will accuse me of attention seeking or whatever...

I don't have enough emotions/empathy to let those things rock me...

I make preparations before I say this because I know what bitter people are like and I am ready for the scorns... (I'm big enough to take it)

...but 6 weeks ago I got really sick. I can't be sure about my own future. I might start getting cut up by the NHS.

Just makes me angry. (Not insane)...

I was laying in pain for weeks and it may come back or may have done some damage already.

It feels asif Greek gods are looking down and lauging at me deciding my fate.

I don't have faith in this being respected by everyone. I don't demand snowflake treatment.

I don't want sympathy or empathy (but can do without bitter scorns)

I don't really feel like discussing details to anyone who isn't a medical pro.

I can't really talk about it alot to people.

I've only just got over my neurological/mental issues and started getting my life/career together...

Then some Greek god must have decided some crule punishments for me.

I doubt it's karma for updating cry babies on hear. (I will take that to the grave)

Chances are I won't die. But I have uncertainty of getting cut to pieces.

I was enjoying my physical health. Exercise was my only goal after loosing my life in Thailand to a thief (colleague who betrayed me)

...so I expect sympathy?

Nahhhh

I just wanted to get it off my chest

I liked inboxing women but I can't meet them unless it's tame activities

How's that?

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *iamondsmiles.Woman
over a year ago

little house on the praire

I will give you sympathy. Sounds like your having a dreadful time. Hope there is a positive outcome

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *tephTV67TV/TS
over a year ago

Cheshire

How's that ?

Sounds terrible, I truly hope things improve, nothing wrong with your post, hope you managed to get some peace after writing it down. Sending love XX

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I don't care what haters say about this or how they will accuse me of attention seeking or whatever...

I don't have enough emotions/empathy to let those things rock me...

I make preparations before I say this because I know what bitter people are like and I am ready for the scorns... (I'm big enough to take it)

...but 6 weeks ago I got really sick. I can't be sure about my own future. I might start getting cut up by the NHS.

Just makes me angry. (Not insane)...

I was laying in pain for weeks and it may come back or may have done some damage already.

It feels asif Greek gods are looking down and lauging at me deciding my fate.

I don't have faith in this being respected by everyone. I don't demand snowflake treatment.

I don't want sympathy or empathy (but can do without bitter scorns)

I don't really feel like discussing details to anyone who isn't a medical pro.

I can't really talk about it alot to people.

I've only just got over my neurological/mental issues and started getting my life/career together...

Then some Greek god must have decided some crule punishments for me.

I doubt it's karma for updating cry babies on hear. (I will take that to the grave)

Chances are I won't die. But I have uncertainty of getting cut to pieces.

I was enjoying my physical health. Exercise was my only goal after loosing my life in Thailand to a thief (colleague who betrayed me)

...so I expect sympathy?

Nahhhh

I just wanted to get it off my chest

I liked inboxing women but I can't meet them unless it's tame activities

How's that?"

Cannot imagine how you are feeling right now, but it is the uncertainty isn't it.

I just hope you are taking care of yourself, emotionally and physical.

I am living with a long term condition, I know surgery is inevitable, when it happens I don't know. When my condition deteriorates further they have said.

Well it makes me feel pretty rubbish tbh, today is a bad day. I can't stand up before feeling like I want to collapse, exhausted.

Yet on the outside I look fine

Sorry, just wanted to send you good wishes and hope your outcome is positive.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *rwolfMan
over a year ago

bristol

End of the day we all need people to rant at, so why not here.

Personally a few years ago I went through a similar experience. Afterwards I completely rethought my life.

Was taken into hospital, immense pain in my head, turns out I was having a massive stroke.

Whilst it took me a while to recover and get through it all, I realised what I wanted from life and since then I have done everything I can to achieve it.

Whilst I can both empathise and sympathise with what you can going through, in all your posts you have come across as strong willed enough to get through it and out the other side.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"Hope there is a positive outcome"

Might be. I just don't feel the specialists get to me soon enough.

I feel I have to point things out to doctors who shouldn't need to be told.

Could go away/could need cutting out/could spread.

They didn't find cancer which is good but it could be other stuff.

I can't do the physicly active lifestyle I enjoy. I am like a 90 year old frail man atm...

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

I don't think I will die but I kinda want to in a way.

I don't like "the gods" having this kind of power over my fate.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *rwolfMan
over a year ago

bristol

With most hospitals they tend to start with worse case scenarios first and work backwards.

If they have ruled out cancer, then that is a positive right there.

Yes it could be a hundred other things, but if they don't have you in a bed having a barrage of tests at the moment then take that as some form of positive too.

If they had any concerns you would be an inpatient rather than an out

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"With most hospitals they tend to start with worse case scenarios first and work backwards.

If they have ruled out cancer, then that is a positive right there.

Yes it could be a hundred other things, but if they don't have you in a bed having a barrage of tests at the moment then take that as some form of positive too.

If they had any concerns you would be an inpatient rather than an out "

Yah that's good.

I was in the hospital but I got to go home.

The healing process is not going as well as hoped and I'm worried about lasting organ damage.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *ouple in LancashireCouple
over a year ago

in Lancashire

How's that?

it sounds like your a bit scared which is natural given your situation, painting a na, fuck it mask perhaps to hide that..

Which again is something we blokes do too often..

Talking to professionals may help if you haven't already done so..

If I've read it wrong my apologies but it's how I've seen other male friends deal with similar..

Good luck..

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

What age are you?

If you’ve lived abroad have they tested for tropical diseases

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *ranny-CrumpetWoman
over a year ago

The Town by The Cross

I hope you are well and happy soon.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"With most hospitals they tend to start with worse case scenarios first and work backwards.

If they have ruled out cancer, then that is a positive right there.

Yes it could be a hundred other things, but if they don't have you in a bed having a barrage of tests at the moment then take that as some form of positive too.

If they had any concerns you would be an inpatient rather than an out "

Can't help but think a hex was put on me for upsetting someone irl or offline.

I get supersticous thoughts about karma or biblical punishment.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I hope you are well and happy soon.

Could happen. I hope.

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Ok get well

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Sounds like you’re concentrating on the superstitious/Greek gods/kharma/ biblical punishment too much

Can mess with your mind

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"How's that?

it sounds like your a bit scared which is natural given your situation, painting a na, fuck it mask perhaps to hide that..

Which again is something we blokes do too often..

Talking to professionals may help if you haven't already done so..

If I've read it wrong my apologies but it's how I've seen other male friends deal with similar..

Good luck.. "

This was my thoughts too. I struggled to make complete sense of the opening post but fear and a need for support seems central to it

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

By *rwolfMan
over a year ago

bristol

"With most hospitals they tend to start with worse case scenarios first and work backwards.

If they have ruled out cancer, then that is a positive right there.

Yes it could be a hundred other things, but if they don't have you in a bed having a barrage of tests at the moment then take that as some form of positive too.

If they had any concerns you would be an inpatient rather than an out

Yah that's good.

I was in the hospital but I got to go home.

The healing process is not going as well as hoped and I'm worried about lasting organ damage."

They will keep you in and run tests until they have ruled out the more serious things like cancer.

Healing takes time, it is always going to. My stroke set my life back nearly 8 months before I could talk properly. It happened several years ago and even today I still have moments where I can't speak due to where I had it.

The body is an amazing thing but it needs time to work in. So try and relax where you can and let it do its thing

Reply privately

Reply in forum

Reply +quote

Post new Message to Thread