This is something I,ve often thought about and the only way I would or could Talk about them is on here, I,m not going
To fully discuss everything here but I want to get some Idea or reasoning behind it all. I,ve got nothing to hide because I would not be talking about it here if I Had, we all have fantasys which is normal in human society, but its the fantasys Which you know are wrong and are not Happy about I want to Try and discuss here, luckily and thank god I have a cut off point from it but Its something that remains in my psyche and only returns at the times I would want it to but saying that I believe thats either a dark side of me or something missing in my life, the fantasy is something I don,t get everyday or every week, or couple of weeks or month or even longer, normal Fantasys I,m comfortable with but the Ones I,m not I question in my mind because thats not really me in reality, but occasionally it excites me to get off with afterwards it means nothing and I start thinking why do I get these thoughts but I,m always in control of these things and have no proper desire in this area, only when your on your own and feel comfortable but in my mind I know its not really me thank god but the fantasy however much pleasure it gives me at the time its a fantasy I wish I would never enjoy it most likely will remain with me but I,m more concious of it now, and the Important thing is its not really me at all, Its one of a few fantasys I wish I could bury forever in my mind .. would appreciate any feedback relateing to my post. |
Thats not perfect either 
yes fantasys have their dark sides I just wish I did,t get them in reality.
