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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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@Alicia and Sweet V, think a boyfriend is what I want! Takes a few attempts on the same guy to fine tune what you like!
@c life, I do tell guys exactly what I want in great detail and they all say they'll do it but in reality they don't. Generic messages like "oh what are you into what things do you like?" I'll tell them but when it comes down to it my ideas never materialise and that's not entirely down to the guy that's also because I think I would have felt stupid doing it.
I like to rim guys but not just lick lick that's it, I like the guy to really enjoy having it done because that is how I get pleasure from it,like it's gotta be a part of him that you can't just do for the sake of doing it, I like to get inside it as much as I can so I can taste flesh and like the guy to rip his own arse cheeks apart so I can get in deeper. I really enjoy it, I can't stress that enough but some guys and this could party be down to the fact that we both aren't comfortable with each other and might be slightly nervous, some guys will just bend over and let me at it purely because I've said I want to rim him. That's just one thing, the other is the bathing, I like to pretend that the guy has got some sort of injury and I'm his carer that has to chuck him in the bath and wash him, from that I will do inappropriate things to him like wank him off, put my nipples in his mouth or force his hands on me, via messaging I get guys saying like aw yeah this is great I'm fucking all over that, in reality they won't or it just feels weird. I like a guy to be fast asleep next to me and when I wake in the night ok suck him off or climb into his face and fuck his nose and chin and then put my fanny over his mouth and watch him struggling to breath, when he wakes I like him to pretend he's disorientated and I'm still his carer that is taking advantage of him. Again, getting guys to have full night meets where they sleep over is proving to be difficult so that idea is out the window.
My main thing is a guy finishing inside me but then eating his own cum as it dribbles out. Can't do that on here because it would involve bareback fucking and I wouldn't risk my sexual health unless I was 100% sure the dude was free from any nasties.
Then my next problem, from what I've described so far the guy thinks I'm 100% dom but I'm not, my mood will flip and then I've got a whole other lot of scenarios, I like to be asleep or pretend I'm asleep and a guy has stumbled upon me in a room at a house party, forcing his dick in my mouth or going down on me whilst I'm sleeping from there I'd wake up and try and fight him off but can't so I end up getting brutally fucked. Again can't do that with a one off guy cos the trust wouldn't be there.
I hate shit like this cos it makes me miss my ex and he's an absolute knob jockey. Really feel like I want a boyfriend again
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