FabSwingers.com forum: Revelation thats made me sad

By *woguyswantingfun OP Couple (MM)
24 weeks ago

welshampton

I've been single for a while, not particularly look8ng or owt, don't panic this isn't that thread.

I think I have an issue with sex. Some people have started to wonder if I'm gay (I'm not btw, but hold no prejudices) as I turn down a lot more opportunities than I take in my real life. And some that I turn down I would like to go for, but hold myself back.

I've realised why, and it feels cowardly and repressed. I turn down women that I feel might talk to others I know about me. I'm so private with it that I won't have casual sex with sometimes great women because I hate the idea of others finding out. Where as if I know for a fact they'll keep it secret I'm totally game.

I don't think it's healthy, and what am I hiding?

Technically i was abused when young. But she was a girl onlh a few years older and I loved it. The fall out was weird for me and terrible for her though. And I always felt bad for her.

Sorry for the long post