FabSwingers.com forum: Grief and maybe guilt ?

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

Evening all.

Tomorrow marks the 6th anniversary that I lost my darling wife, it’s not been an easy path since then by any standards and it’s only now that I am getting proper help for depression.

We were on here as a couple from about 2012, visited a few clubs, met a few single guys along the way of whom one or two became really good friends outside of playing and basically we had a fun time.

She knew about my “alter ego” as I was upfront and honest when we first got together, and admittedly it did take a while for her to get used to the idea, but she did and everything was fine, this also added to the cuck/hot wife relationship we had together.

Towards the last few months of her life she actively encouraged me to dress and was also happy for me to attend a party or two as Emily on my own.

Whilst I have been on and off here for the last couple of years as Emily, sometimes I do get the feeling of guilt when I can arrange a meet. I don’t think she would disapprove by any means, but in my head it still sometimes feels “weird”.

Am I overthinking things maybe ?

Anyone else been in a situation?

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I don't think you're overthinking it, you're still grieving and it's very much an individual process. There's no right or wrong

She'll be happy that you're doing you

By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago

"I don't think you're overthinking it, you're still grieving and it's very much an individual process. There's no right or wrong

She'll be happy that you're doing you

thank you x

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Good evening Emily. My heart goes out to you for the loss of your dear wife.

"...actively encouraged me to dress and was also happy for me to attend a party or two as Emily on my own"

Your own words say it all. As she was in life, so she would be now; happy to see you living your life and not holding yourself back.

By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

It sound like you had a loving and special relationship

I'm guessing she'd be happy knowing your happy

All the very best to you you're doing nothing wrong. X