FabSwingers.com forum: Message into the ether

By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

Sometimes you need to write down a message you haven’t been able to say or send and get it put out into the universe. Do so here! No need to tell us who it is for and why, but send that message that you’re unable to send whether it’s logistics, timing or simply bravery that’s meant you’ve not sent it so far.

Send your message into the ether...

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

I wish I was there with you and could tell you how much you mean to me. I wish I had the words to articulate how I feel and what an amazing and inspirational person you are in my life.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Fuck you! really hard!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Fuck you! really hard!

Not you OP...

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I miss who you used to be.

I miss who we used to be.

And it makes me sad that we drifted apart.

There...i can delete her number now

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Fuck you! really hard!

Not you OP...

Wait, I would obv!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

It's not your fault.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I miss you very much and wish you would come back into my life x

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By *affron40Woman
over a year ago

manchester

You didn’t win

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By *ildbillkidMan
over a year ago

where the road goes on forever

I still think of you

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

Why don’t you love me?

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

Don't give up. It can be so worth it.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You can’t use your car/watch/job title/salary in lieu of a personality. Your money can’t buy one of those so pipe down you absolute weapon

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Sorry it’s not you who’s changed , it’s me.

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By *edeWoman
over a year ago

the abyss

Will I ever be enough for you?

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By *rincess peachWoman
over a year ago

shits creek

I wish I'd never met you.

I let you into my heart and went against a promise I made to myself never to hand anyone something so precious again.

You should have never been here.

You lied.

You knew.

You are no different to my abusive ex, not really.

You manipulate for your own gain and are too cowardly to look at the truth. The real truth not your own watered down version.

I hate what you did.

I hate what you did to me.

You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over.

I hope you come clean with your wife, she deserves that much, but you won't because you're the one that's shit scared of rejection.

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By *nabelle21Woman
over a year ago

B38

"Fuck you! really hard!

Not you OP...

Wait, I would obv!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I wish I was there with you and could tell you how much you mean to me. I wish I had the words to articulate how I feel and what an amazing and inspirational person you are in my life. "

That’s beautiful. If this is for your father, I’m sure he knows. Sending hugs

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By *icearmsMan
over a year ago

KIDLINGTON

I remember all those things you did. You had no right to affect my life in that way! One day you'll be gone and the world will be did of an evil man. The only thing I'm grateful for is you taught me how not to be anything like you.

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

Don’t tell me to be confident then be the one to pull me down.

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By *emorefridaCouple
over a year ago

La la land

Acknowledging you fucked up is more important than your pride

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By *affron40Woman
over a year ago

manchester

"I wish I'd never met you.

I let you into my heart and went against a promise I made to myself never to hand anyone something so precious again.

You should have never been here.

You lied.

You knew.

You are no different to my abusive ex, not really.

You manipulate for your own gain and are too cowardly to look at the truth. The real truth not your own watered down version.

I hate what you did.

I hate what you did to me.

You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over.

I hope you come clean with your wife, she deserves that much, but you won't because you're the one that's shit scared of rejection."

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I wish I'd never met you.

I let you into my heart and went against a promise I made to myself never to hand anyone something so precious again.

You should have never been here.

You lied.

You knew.

You are no different to my abusive ex, not really.

You manipulate for your own gain and are too cowardly to look at the truth. The real truth not your own watered down version.

I hate what you did.

I hate what you did to me.

You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over.

I hope you come clean with your wife, she deserves that much, but you won't because you're the one that's shit scared of rejection."

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Thank you for setting the bar so high

I owe you everything

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By *oodnitegirlWoman
over a year ago

Yorkshire

Why?

You couldn’t have been loved more. (Heartbreak emoji)

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Don’t forget milk, oh and pick me up a Curly Wurly.

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

I loved you then

I love you still

I always have

And always will

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I wish I'd said more, done more, appriciated you more and told you more often. I wish I'd realised how precious our time was and realised you weren't invincible. I hope you can still hear me

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

To each and everyone of you - we may not have spoken, we may never directly communicate, but your thoughts, your humour, your humility and vulnerability and your constant and immediate presence provide an aspect of companionship that I cherish - thank you.

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By *anshee99Woman
over a year ago

all over

I thought I'd be sad without you but actually I'm happier than ever.

I already feel sorry for the person you meet next

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By *rambuie100Man
over a year ago

essex/suffolk border

You stopped me in my tracks, that night. now i wish i had walked onwards.

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By *oodnitegirlWoman
over a year ago

Yorkshire

I’m glad I tried to say sorry. Even if you didn’t want to hear it.

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

"I wish I'd said more, done more, appriciated you more and told you more often. I wish I'd realised how precious our time was and realised you weren't invincible. I hope you can still hear me

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

"To each and everyone of you - we may not have spoken, we may never directly communicate, but your thoughts, your humour, your humility and vulnerability and your constant and immediate presence provide an aspect of companionship that I cherish - thank you. "

I second that. Beautiful words from a beautiful soul Estella.

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By *rincess peachWoman
over a year ago

shits creek

Oh, one more thing, if I do find you back on here or up to your old tricks you won't need to worry about your wife finding out coz it's a motherfucking guarantee she will. At least then SOMEONE will be honest with her and give her the info she needs to make an informed decision.

You don't care about her, you care about yourself, you selfish cunt.

Reputation is more important to you than doing the right thing. Fuck you.

Fuck your pathetic excuses.

Be a fucking man and own your shit.

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By *icearmsMan
over a year ago

KIDLINGTON

They say you can't controll the family you're born into. I wish I could.. those times you lied and told me you were dying, and your selfish traits did so much more damage than you could ever know. You left me at a young age to fend for myself something no child should experience.. I grew up, I became independent and now I don't need you. I have created my life have my world.. and you're not in it.

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By *edeWoman
over a year ago

the abyss

"I wish I'd said more, done more, appriciated you more and told you more often. I wish I'd realised how precious our time was and realised you weren't invincible. I hope you can still hear me

They definitely can hear as well as feel your love

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By *affron40Woman
over a year ago

manchester

You’re perfectly you and that’s the most beautiful thing you can possibly be

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By *entleman JayMan
over a year ago

Wakefield

Wow. This is heavy stuff!

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By *icearmsMan
over a year ago

KIDLINGTON

Thanks for the thread op..

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I wish you'd just been honest about what you'd been up to, I'm an adult and I can take it. I don't appreciate feeling like you're trying to mess with my feelings and have your cake and eat it.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

One more in the other direction,

I don't regret my decision, I never will. The best move I could of ever made was uttering those words. You're blame doesn't hurt anymore, it can't touch me. I'm stronger without you. One day they will see it, I won't fix you're mistakes, they always have and always will come first.

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

"Wow. This is heavy stuff! "

The curly wurly post stress you out?

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Loving this thread OP

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I wish I'd never met you.

I let you into my heart and went against a promise I made to myself never to hand anyone something so precious again.

You should have never been here.

You lied.

You knew.

You are no different to my abusive ex, not really.

You manipulate for your own gain and are too cowardly to look at the truth. The real truth not your own watered down version.

I hate what you did.

I hate what you did to me.

You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over.

I hope you come clean with your wife, she deserves that much, but you won't because you're the one that's shit scared of rejection."

No words... just a virtual hug

Her x

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By *anshee99Woman
over a year ago

all over

****I'd like to hear from more men being open and honest the way the ladies are***

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Dear Dad

I was 21 and 4 months pregnant when you left me suddenly, I felt every emotion at that point, you were my world, my rock the Man wbo loved me regardless and always fought my corner whether I was right or wrong, you raised me to be strong, resiliant and independent....Or so I thought when you were around, you were gone and I wasn't so sure.

Anger, I had a deep seated anger at you for leaving me when I needed you, then guilt because you never deserved that.

When my baby was born I cried non stop, knowing how much you would of loved him, anger again that you would never hold him. He looked like you, had your smile and mischievous glint in his eyes, I'd into his eyes and remember you.

The sadness and I anger always surfaced at both your Grandson's milestones....

They are adults now and I wish you can see the men I raised them into and shared their achievements.

My guess is you and the 'baby' wouldn't understand each other but you wouldn't need too, your relationship would of been special and unique, close.

Not angry anymore, I realise now that anger is a wasted emotion, I can't do anger now, deal with an issue and move forward because it is all we can do. I have also learnt that grief is a never ending wave that ebbs and flows with you through life, you learn to live with it.

Love you

Shelley

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By *olex99Man
over a year ago

Hull

We would have been amazing together. Only you know why you ran. I said you were special, you didn't think so. You were. You still are. I would still try but sometimes one person can't make the difference. I can't forget you and I never will.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Im glad you're gone from my life.

Im glad you never ruined me no matter how hard you tried.

You lied, you cheated, you tried to destroy a better person than you who only ever tried to be good to you, who helped you live and who brought up your 3 children who you never paid for and who you barely cared for.

Even your mother on her deathbed told me that you didn't deserve me and she was right, you didn't.

I didnt deserve you, nobody deserves someone as bad as you.

Now for those who truly know me, they see the scars you left, the damage you did but they thankfully still see the person I have always been.

The friend that cares, the friend who is there and the person I love to be today.

You tried and failed.....this is the story of your sad little life and may you forever get what you truly deserve amd may that never be someone like me again.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"Dear Dad

Anger, I had a deep seated anger at you for leaving me when I needed you, then guilt because you never deserved that.

The sadness and I anger always surfaced at both your Grandson's milestones....

They are adults now and I wish you can see the men I raised them into and shared their achievements.

My guess is you and the 'baby' wouldn't understand each other but you wouldn't need too, your relationship would of been special and unique, close.

Love you

Shelley

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By *viatrixWoman
over a year ago

Redhill

I could very easily fall in love with you.

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By *lbinoGorillaMan
over a year ago

Redditch

I'm sorry that I didn't make you my priority, and that I wasn't there for you when you really needed me.

I'd love to be able to try again, but understand why you say it's too late

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Dear Mum

Thank you for loving me in the unique way you did and thank you for protecting me from myself in the darker days, you always told me the truth and you always knew the answers to whatever crisis I was having.

Thank you for being an incredible Nein to my boys, teaching them bad habits and swear words, giving them sweets when I said no and teaching them that it is ok to break rules sometimes....I could never be cross with you for that because I remember how fun it was when you used to encourage me to break the rules, we all have a little bit of free spirit still.

You used to tell me 'if you want to dance, do it, if you want to sing, just do it...always laugh and always tell those people around you that you love them, feel it, do it was your motto

Btw you have been sat on that cloud now for nigh on 4 years! Can you please send me the lottery numbers via the psychic line

Thanks for loving me in that unique way you did, nobody ever loved me like you did!

Love you

Shelley

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By *uge G RectionMan
over a year ago

where I like to be... down south

I wish she would notice me

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over a year ago

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over a year ago

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By *uge G RectionMan
over a year ago

where I like to be... down south

"I could very easily fall in love with you.

Awwww thanks

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

A feeling of dread engulfed me when I left after our last visit, you hadn’t said much, you were sleepy but I treasure that visit, which I find strange. I feel guilty for not coming to visit after being told you didn’t have long left, the following day, but I couldn’t bring myself to see you delirious and fading away. I’m stricken with guilt that I never wore my uniform to your funeral, even though it doesn’t matter to you, you were immensely proud of me and what I’ve achieved. I’m overcome with tears with I think of you, but I’m also overjoyed that I was able to have a close relationship with you and you shared your life stories with me, and although I’m not religious, I’m glad you shared your faith. You’ve influenced me to strive to achieve greatness, but above all, you showed me to focus on being happy, and greatness will follow.

You’re always in my thoughts.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I wish I could tell you how I feel about you

Ever time I see you my hart skips a beat

You have the most wonderful smile I have ever seen

Ur eyes are so deep blue I could get lost in them like I was out a drifte at sea

I have hinted to you so meny time

Wished you would pic up on the hints maybe you have and maybe ur the same as me scared to say anything for the fear off being rejected Plus it really would make things very complicated

Maybe I just have to except the fact that we just destin to be what we are now

It’s such a shame

Honestly I evertime I see you I just want to grab you hug you and

Whisper in to ur ear and tell you that I am true in love with you

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

You destroyed me. Your words, your indifference and your fists.

I'll never forgive you, but it's not worth hating you any more, because that just lets you destroy me all over again every day.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

They say that the deceased are still with you.

They say that the deceased send signs.

I wish

I miss you all so much xxxxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I dreamed a dream

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

I never got to meet you, but I will always love you. 22 years between first and last and I love you all xxxxxxxxxxxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I never got to meet you, but I will always love you. 22 years between first and last and I love you all xxxxxxxxxxxx"

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By *entleman JayMan
over a year ago

Wakefield

"Wow. This is heavy stuff!

The curly wurly post stress you out?

Traumatised lol.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You haven't won, you never will, the battle may have ended but the war has just begun.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I never got to meet you, but I will always love you. 22 years between first and last and I love you all xxxxxxxxxxxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Something hysterical for Hope!

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By *ookie46Woman
over a year ago

Deepest darkest Peru

I wish I could have held you longer

I wish I could have kissed your lips as you still breathed

I wish that you know how much I loved you

I wish that last day could have lasted forever

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Dad - wish you were here

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

Dont try to dampen my happy spirit became it doesn't bother me

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"Dont try to dampen my happy spirit became it doesn't bother me"

*because

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By *acktar74Man
over a year ago

leeds

You died to young. You must have been scared and in so much pain to take your own life. Sleep well friend. Hope the next life offers you peace that wasn't in this one.

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By *rincess peachWoman
over a year ago

shits creek

dear peanut...

I had to let you go, not because I didn't love you, but because I did. My protective instincts had already kicked in and although we were only together 8 weeks, I did the best thing I could in that position and set you free.

I wouldn't have been a good mum to you, I wasn't mentally strong enough and I'd not risk putting you in care, I was responsible for you and did what needed to be done for both of us, it would have been cruel of me to bring you into such a mess.

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

"You haven't won, you never will, the battle may have ended but the war has just begun. "

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

I love you too x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

'Why?'

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

I wish things could be like they were. I miss you. Yes. You. It makes me sad too

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

'The mind once enlightened, cannot again become darkened!

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I wish things could be like they were. I miss you. Yes. You. It makes me sad too

Behave....

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I think this thread might actually make me cry.

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

I’m sorry I couldn’t give you the energy you required and had to step back. It was self preservation.

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"I think this thread might actually make me cry."

Cry cry

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"I’m sorry I couldn’t give you the energy you required and had to step back. It was self preservation."

It's ok x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You weren't worth the tears or self doubt.The best thing I ever did was to find the strength to let you go. In doing that, I found myself again x

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

Nice thread Estella

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By *pursChick aka ShortieWoman
over a year ago

On a mooch

"I wish I could have held you longer

I wish I could have kissed your lips as you still breathed

I wish that you know how much I loved you

I wish that last day could have lasted forever "

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"dear peanut...

Sending my love

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By *nigmatic_AngelWoman
over a year ago

The place where fairies live

"Sometimes you need to write down a message you haven’t been able to say or send and get it put out into the universe. Do so here! No need to tell us who it is for and why, but send that message that you’re unable to send whether it’s logistics, timing or simply bravery that’s meant you’ve not sent it so far.

Send your message into the ether..."

Ok how about.

"I hate you're in pain..you're one of the strongest people I know. I promise you'll be ok in hospital tomorrow. They will find out what the problem is and you'll come home. It won't be as bad as you think. i can't bear the fact I can't take your pain away and it breaks my heart when you're crying in my arms because of your pain and you're frightened. And I can't come in with you either. Just because you're a grown up doesn't mean you stop being my baby girl. I love you and I'd do anything to make.all this go away xx

Love mum xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Dad

I should have been your world , you should have loved me unconditionally protected me and made sure I was always ok . Instead you made me feel worthless, insecure and never good enough, your lack of love for me has left its scars , your indifference to my achievements has made me constantly seek approval, your jealousy of anything good in my life has given me constant feelings of guilt. It didn’t matter how much I did for you , how much I loved you or how much I made sure you was ok even in your deathbed as I held your hand when you slipped away you still couldn’t show me any love , I will never forget of be ok with how you treated me

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I’m not a project to be perfected. I’m perfect as I am, a constant work in progress that I’m happy with.

I know you care, I know that’s why you want me always to strive for the best, but your expectations are crushing me to the point that I worry I’ll never be good enough in your eyes. It’s always on my mind, and I wish you could understand how much it hurts.

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By *pursChick aka ShortieWoman
over a year ago

On a mooch

"dear peanut...

Sending you a hug

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By *nigmatic_AngelWoman
over a year ago

The place where fairies live

"dear peanut...

Hugs x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I think this thread might actually make me cry."

It's had me in tears

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

A sad but also beautiful thread , thank you OP x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Big hugs to all. Lots of pain here. Life can be hard, cruel and edifying. It makes us who we are.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Excellent thread _stella

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

Thank you Estella.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You didnt break me.

I am back, and you are in my past.

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

Thank you everyone for your honest leaps of faith. I’m finding solace in our shared pain.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You can’t dull my sparkle. It’s a physical impossibility. I’m sorry you’re not happy but let me lift you up, stop trying to drag me down. You have more to gain than I have to lose

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You tried to break me, used my love for you against me. The children were pawns in your sick game and I’ll never forgive the damage you’ve done to them both mentally and physically. I thought I was going to end it all the day I asked you to leave, but it was the first step in regaining myself. Yes I’m damaged and have walls around me, but I’m worth so much more than you ever told me I was. My life might not be perfect, but I have a chance with someone that thinks I’m perfect for them.

Hate is a strong word, but it’s my overwhelming emotion when I think of you and what you’ve done. I hope you’re bought to justice one day and everyone knows how truly evil you were. X

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By *obbychickWoman
over a year ago

Essex

I had a lump in my throat whilst reading this thread

Big hugs to you all

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

It takes great strength to continue after lifes cruelty.

It takes even more to continue after human cruelty.

xxxx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
deal

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

I can't believe you're finally coming home and we get to sit and talk again. There's so much to tell you and so much for you to share. Don't let her stop us.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deal"

Never

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deal

Never"

I'm still cross with you for ignoring me

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By *hav02Man
over a year ago

Glasgow/London

This thread is a heartache to read

There's a lot of loss, a lot of hurt, emotionally. The forumite friendly Fab banter means we can all get along with no judgement, be kind and good friends

*hugs, handshakes and fist bumps to you all*

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By *hav02Man
over a year ago

Glasgow/London

[Removed by poster at 03/09/20 00:36:31]

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deal

Never

I'm still cross with you for ignoring me

I'm sorry....

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By *oreno0969Man
over a year ago

Rugby

You could break my heart into tiny little pieces,

And i'd pick them up,

And put them back in your hands

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"You could break my heart into tiny little pieces,

And i'd pick them up,

And put them back in your hands

Don't ever let anyone who does this to you hold their hands anywhere near you again.

Been there and done that and it isn't worth the heartache.

Move on as there are people who will take those little pieces, help you put them back together again and won't hurt you this way.

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By *ouno2muchMan
over a year ago

Disneyland

I know you can’t talk to me.. I hope you know I listen to everything you don’t say. If silence is a language, I imagine we’ve had a million conversations together, every day and every minute of every hour that pass. I know it’s different and difficult for you, I know you do your best. I hope you know I will always be proud of you and you will always be my world.

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

"You could break my heart into tiny little pieces,

And i'd pick them up,

And put them back in your hands

When he broke my heart into tiny little pieces you helped me pick them up and put them away in a box. Thank you

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You messed up - big time and with all the love I have in my heart I have to walk away.

You'll always be a part of my life and I'll always love you, though that is now platonic, that doesn't mean I won't be there if you need me, it just means not as husband and wife intimately.

Later sweets, I just wish you could have seen the limitless potential and illuminating beauty that I saw when I looked at you x

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By *asmeenTV/TS
over a year ago

STOKE ON TRENT

"No more threads with Nippy in the title unless I write them...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deal

Never

I'm still cross with you for ignoring me

I'm sorry....

Xxx

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By *stella OP Woman
over a year ago

London

I wish you were here when I wake up.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You're all gone.

And that's OK.

I'm better off alone where no one can hurt me.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I don’t regret what I did, but I regret how I did it and I apologise for that.

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By *hav02Man
over a year ago

Glasgow/London

Strange how life deals its cards. You were a significant part of my life, my rock, and a part of me, and no one has come close yet to filling that void. I wish I could have made a different choice back then, and may be all those dreams we planned could have come true.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Well i was right ....it went exactly as i knew it would

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

It is nearly 19 years since you left us but the one thing you asked for was to always be remembered.

I do

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

You are the perfect person for me. You are funny, outgoing, romantic and thoughtful. As long as I can, I will look from onfar, wish you as much happiness the world can give you and smile at the wonderful person you are.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I am everything you never had the courage to be, I have acheived this not because of you but in spite of you.

I'm now realising that I don't need you to love me, and the fact that you never cared isn't a reflection on my worth as a person.

He's been more of a father to me than you ever were, or could be in a thousand lifetimes and I'm done waiting for you to want to be a part of my life.

You're nothing to me.

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By *rumpyMcFuckNuggetMan
over a year ago

Den of Iniquity

"I wish I'd never met you.

I let you into my heart and went against a promise I made to myself never to hand anyone something so precious again.

You should have never been here.

You lied.

You knew.

You are no different to my abusive ex, not really.

You manipulate for your own gain and are too cowardly to look at the truth. The real truth not your own watered down version.

I hate what you did.

I hate what you did to me.

You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over.

I hope you come clean with your wife, she deserves that much, but you won't because you're the one that's shit scared of rejection."

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By *rumpyMcFuckNuggetMan
over a year ago

Den of Iniquity

Mum , Dad ...

I thought I had more time to tell you the things I should of when you were here .

I hope you are both proud of me even though you know I'm far from perfect xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Morrisons

(tried on the other thread)

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

This is a truly beautiful thread Estella.

To see so many friends share their emotions , their loss and also how some of you found a way out of somthing that wasnt good for you .

Ive taken the time to read all the posts . Im sending my heartfelt love from Wales.

We do have a chuckle in the lounge , and make each other smile . Its good we can also open up like this .

The one i miss so much , i talk to every day, i feel him when i walk in the places we knew so well together. He changed my life for the better , i know he will always be in my heart ans my head .

Every one in the forum were so kind and supportive when pooch was diagnosed with lymphoma then so kind and caring when he passed away .

You are in my heart buddy ans always will be , ubtill they day when we can roam free again together in the hills we love so much

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By *tella HeelsTV/TS
over a year ago

west here ford shire

Dad I miss you, your council your down to earth sensibility, RIP

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By *dam1971Man
over a year ago

Bedford

I wish I could be with you. My heart wants it but I know it’s not possible.

I’m fortunate to know you but it crushes me that I can’t be more

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I wish that I could hold you one last time Dad,I miss you so much and evening though it's almost 6 years since God took you inhis arms it still feels like yesterday,love you,miss you,Rip Dad

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By *rumpyMcFuckNuggetMan
over a year ago

Den of Iniquity

"This is a truly beautiful thread Estella.

To see so many friends share their emotions , their loss and also how some of you found a way out of somthing that wasnt good for you .

Ive taken the time to read all the posts . Im sending my heartfelt love from Wales.

We do have a chuckle in the lounge , and make each other smile . Its good we can also open up like this .

The one i miss so much , i talk to every day, i feel him when i walk in the places we knew so well together. He changed my life for the better , i know he will always be in my heart ans my head .

Every one in the forum were so kind and supportive when pooch was diagnosed with lymphoma then so kind and caring when he passed away .

You are in my heart buddy ans always will be , ubtill they day when we can roam free again together in the hills we love so much

Awww I'm almost in tears Taff .

I know how much you loved Pooch and you are without doubt the nicest guy in here

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"This is a truly beautiful thread Estella.

To see so many friends share their emotions , their loss and also how some of you found a way out of somthing that wasnt good for you .

Ive taken the time to read all the posts . Im sending my heartfelt love from Wales.

We do have a chuckle in the lounge , and make each other smile . Its good we can also open up like this .

The one i miss so much , i talk to every day, i feel him when i walk in the places we knew so well together. He changed my life for the better , i know he will always be in my heart ans my head .

Every one in the forum were so kind and supportive when pooch was diagnosed with lymphoma then so kind and caring when he passed away .

You are in my heart buddy ans always will be , ubtill they day when we can roam free again together in the hills we love so much

Awww I'm almost in tears Taff .

I know how much you loved Pooch and you are without doubt the nicest guy in here

"
diolch its very kind of you to say . Yes we were a team and i will never forget the kindness ans suport of friends in the forum

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I miss you Baby,you where that missing zigsaw piece,when you passed away 6months after Dad I thought how am I meant to get through this,I sense you around me,I knew you where afraid of dying baby I hope that you had nothing to be afraid of at the end,love and miss Bab

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By *rumpyMcFuckNuggetMan
over a year ago

Den of Iniquity

"This is a truly beautiful thread Estella.

To see so many friends share their emotions , their loss and also how some of you found a way out of somthing that wasnt good for you .

Ive taken the time to read all the posts . Im sending my heartfelt love from Wales.

We do have a chuckle in the lounge , and make each other smile . Its good we can also open up like this .

The one i miss so much , i talk to every day, i feel him when i walk in the places we knew so well together. He changed my life for the better , i know he will always be in my heart ans my head .

Every one in the forum were so kind and supportive when pooch was diagnosed with lymphoma then so kind and caring when he passed away .

You are in my heart buddy ans always will be , ubtill they day when we can roam free again together in the hills we love so much

Awww I'm almost in tears Taff .

I know how much you loved Pooch and you are without doubt the nicest guy in here

diolch its very kind of you to say . Yes we were a team and i will never forget the kindness ans suport of friends in the forum

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

I promise you we will get there..

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Im convinced if i was half an hour earlier that night, things would be different.

Im convinced if i had seen you, you'd still be here

Our lives took different paths but we i was always there for you, you knew that, why didnt you reach out.

Im writing this 17 years on, and it doesnt get any easier.

I miss you and it makes me sad we missed out on so much.

I'll see you again

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"This is a truly beautiful thread Estella.

To see so many friends share their emotions , their loss and also how some of you found a way out of somthing that wasnt good for you .

Ive taken the time to read all the posts . Im sending my heartfelt love from Wales.

We do have a chuckle in the lounge , and make each other smile . Its good we can also open up like this .

The one i miss so much , i talk to every day, i feel him when i walk in the places we knew so well together. He changed my life for the better , i know he will always be in my heart ans my head .

Every one in the forum were so kind and supportive when pooch was diagnosed with lymphoma then so kind and caring when he passed away .

You are in my heart buddy ans always will be , ubtill they day when we can roam free again together in the hills we love so much

This is as beautiful as it is heartbreaking

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Ahh Estella, what a wonderful soul you are! A heartwarming sentiment, beautifully expressed.

A lovely thread too, thank you.

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By *VineMan
over a year ago

The right place

To someone I miss dearly. Firstly thank you for your love. You only ever saw the best in me and overlooked my flaws. Because of you I know what it’s like to be loved unconditionally. I am so grateful that I had you in my life. In many ways you are still with me, if I turn my attention to you, I feel the warmth of your presence like a blanket around me.

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By *uiet LightMan
over a year ago

Hove

I am scared, lonely, exhausted. I wish someone would hold me, just once. The idea of someone seeking my company, for a walk, for a coffee, to hold hands, is such a novelty to me.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"I am scared, lonely, exhausted. I wish someone would hold me, just once. The idea of someone seeking my company, for a walk, for a coffee, to hold hands, is such a novelty to me."

Hugs xx

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By *d4fun73Man
over a year ago

Shipley

This thread has brought me to tears and laughter in one go.

To my ex wife... I will always love you till the day I die.

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By *d4fun73Man
over a year ago

Shipley

"This thread has brought me to tears and laughter in one go.

To my ex wife... I will always love you till the day I die. "

And to my dad...

You never knew your grandson but he's a fine young man now.

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By *ucasjessCouple
over a year ago

ask us

I just want to say sorry and give you a hug but I'll never see you again

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

If only you knew...

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By *riar BelisseWoman
over a year ago

Delightful Bliss

I know it is super hard and you are really hurting right now, but I will always be here to pick you up, dust you off and stroll behind you incase you falter my friend x

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

"You were what I considered my last chance at love and you fucked me over."

There is always another chance... if you want it.

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By *ecadent_DevonMan
over a year ago

Okehampton

You are always there, in my thoughts, you never leave them. You may treat me with indifference, as your “turn-to” guy when life gets rough and forget me once again when life is kind. It doesn’t matter wren, I am old enough to know what will never be and good enough to know it doesn’t matter. When you fall down, I will still pick you up and dust you off, and I will still accept that afterwards you will push me away.

Wren, there will never be a moment when I do not run to your side when you call, until the day you stop calling

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

This thread has me an emotional wreck

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Introspection has made me consider some things that I try not to think about, and I feel better for airing out some old pains and finding them not quite as unbearable anymore.

I may have been an emotional wreck last night because of this thread, but I’m glad it was started! Xx

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Your mum.

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Good eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeevening.

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By *rivateparts!Man
over a year ago

Walking down the only road I've ever known!

You came into my life when it was dark you lit the spark.

You make me smile when I am sad.

You touched a place not many can reach and for that whatever happens.

You will always be my friend

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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago

Awwwww. Wow. Just read this

(sniff sniff)

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By *otSoPoshWoman
over a year ago

In a ball gown because that's how we roll in N. Devon

I still miss the way we were

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By *oneyand_ICouple
over a year ago

Hampshire

Oh this thread has given me all of the feels.

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