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By *im Gumby OP Man 21 weeks ago
London & Europe |
I have decided to put down this rather self indulgent piece, in the hope that ladies read it and understand me a little better. If they want to help, then I will say thank you!
I masturbate a lot, not that I cum a lot, as I can go for many days just working close to an orgasm and then letting myself calm down. Yes, this is edging and it builds tension, leads to a bit of leakage of precum, but ultimately gets painful when your body really wants it over.
My mood goes with it. Casual chat and friendly banter at first, gives way to tension, single mindedness and, ultimately, desperation. I know that this can seem to be rude or unfriendly, but it is hard for me to control, and I apologise in advance.
I was brought up to believe that wanking was evil. It has shaped my life. I do it, but with a massive guilt complex. I like to look at titty pics, but ultimately that is not what makes me cum. The trigger is more in my head.
So, what gets me off is that shame and humiliation factor. I like to be mocked, called a wanker, and made to feel ashamed. Ladies sometimes feel bad doing it, but please be assured, I am very grateful and I love it. You can tell me how to wank my uncut cock, it is not that impressive, so mock it with some small penis humiliation. I will drag back the foreskin, wank the tender end etc, being controlled is erotic for me.
I do not take long, if I know that a lady is aware that I am wanking, then I can end it in a couple of minutes. The lady does not watch, does not show, all she does is type a bit of mocking humiliating talk. My brain takes over and my cumshot is both guaranteed and totally satisfying.
I am not going to pretend it is my birthday etc, but any ladies that can spare a couple of minutes, please remember that I might be 5 days into an edging session, and a couple of messages will make me end it and put another pathetic wanker out of service, lol |